*sigh*....Well my current relationship ended today...one day before our ONE year anniversary. She has been gone at camp for a week and when she calls me I talk to her for 5 mins before she hands me over to her friends. One I know well, he's a bud of mine too. Another one hates me and like to piss me off. My girlfriend thinks its funny when people make me angry or sad, but no one knows because I hide it. I called her last night leaving her a message. This is what I said: "Hey...just calling to see how you were doing...*sigh*...is it just me or are have we grown apart? Everytime I wanna hold you you wanna run...you've changed. You use to be sweet and shy now your a wild girl...I know it could just be me talking out of missing you...but I don't know...anyway call me back...I love you" This morning she called. She said she got my message and I was right. Usually I'm never right. She said she just wanted to be friends...GOD! THERE WERE SO MANY THINGS I WANTED TO SAY!!!...but I just nodded smiling 'ok...' She told me that she wanted to settle down...she doesn't want us to end up hating each other.' I don't hate her but I'm just sorry...After that she asked me 'Do you feel the same way? like we should get out and meet other people?' I replied with 'No...I was happy with you...' She said she was soory but I told her it was ok...She then said I love you...and so did I. All day today, I have kept my rage, sadness, and every other emotion hidden away from everyone...even my mom....I have finally gained perfect calmness within my mind but not my soul. I drew this because I felt like it. *sigh* anyway enjoy and....yea...whatever I don't care anymore...