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Update 01/17: To avoid any confusion I wanted to put this out there. I'm sorry to report that the two of us are no longer together; we just weren't able to be what the other person needed them to be for a fulfilling and lifelong partnership and it took far too long for me to see it clearly or soon enough. The lifestyle he wanted to live by was one I could not compromise my core values for and I learned this the hard way; I know now that I need a partner with the same kind of relationship, boundaries, and level of commitment that I want to receive and will uphold in return.
But I am grateful for the experience and what this has taught me about myself and my own needs as well as once more highlighting why proper communication is of the utmost importance and the difference between lust and love. Thank you to my close friends for their support and advice. I am disappointed by the ultimate outcome of this endeavor but also determined to take what I have learned and grow from it. I only wish the best for him as we part our separate ways; may you enjoy the partner who could provide for you the alternative life you had sought and that your decision brings you fulfillment and happiness. Goodbye, PoX.
For those of you who don't really follow my personal life (you guys are terrible stalkers), I had a lot of super major huge events, good and bad, happen to me earlier this year and a lot of it explains my online absence. Arguably one of the biggest changes was a change in relationship status for me. I drew this quick little doodle months ago but realized I never posted this to my gallery.
So I recently fell in love. Deeply for real, like I never thought I could be capable of.
At least I hope it's real love for I've never really experienced anything like this before.
As of May 4th, 2014 I became mated to this kitty, known as 'PoX'. He and I had been roommates for years and considered each other to be like a brother/sister, though we had stayed strictly as friends. But we had an unspoken understanding and bond of trust... eventually that evolved into intimacy and a relationship began. Insert some sappy love crap here, etc.
In all seriousness I wish for this experience to be discovered by everyone some day because my perception has entirely shifted gears here. There have been times in the past few months where I feel like I couldn't be happier with myself, my body, my partner, and my life. We're poor as heck in monetary value, but I still feel like the wealthiest person alive right now (still, it's too bad pure love energy can't pay the rent XD)
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You guys already know too much about me, but who is this PoX guy anyways?
If you've been a part of my Livestream, you've probably seen him a few times- he's often in the background, being shirtless and swinging glowsticks around. Actually he's been paid to do shows of swinging lights on strings around before and is absolutely amazing at the art of Poi. His fursona is a Margay, which is a small jungle tree cat related to the Ocelot and I've also helped draw his official reference sheet. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11210508/
He's 2 years older than me (that's a first) and has a bachelor's degree in Computer Science, hence the nickname "Tech Support Kitty" He's also a practitioner of parkour and an avid LARPer/video gamer. His FA/DA pages are extremely bare, so best quick snapshot of him would be his YouTube channel:
https://www.youtube.com/user/PoXAzraelis
Riley ©
CanineHybrid
PoX ©
pox.azraelis
But I am grateful for the experience and what this has taught me about myself and my own needs as well as once more highlighting why proper communication is of the utmost importance and the difference between lust and love. Thank you to my close friends for their support and advice. I am disappointed by the ultimate outcome of this endeavor but also determined to take what I have learned and grow from it. I only wish the best for him as we part our separate ways; may you enjoy the partner who could provide for you the alternative life you had sought and that your decision brings you fulfillment and happiness. Goodbye, PoX.
For those of you who don't really follow my personal life (you guys are terrible stalkers), I had a lot of super major huge events, good and bad, happen to me earlier this year and a lot of it explains my online absence. Arguably one of the biggest changes was a change in relationship status for me. I drew this quick little doodle months ago but realized I never posted this to my gallery.
So I recently fell in love. Deeply for real, like I never thought I could be capable of.
At least I hope it's real love for I've never really experienced anything like this before.
As of May 4th, 2014 I became mated to this kitty, known as 'PoX'. He and I had been roommates for years and considered each other to be like a brother/sister, though we had stayed strictly as friends. But we had an unspoken understanding and bond of trust... eventually that evolved into intimacy and a relationship began. Insert some sappy love crap here, etc.
In all seriousness I wish for this experience to be discovered by everyone some day because my perception has entirely shifted gears here. There have been times in the past few months where I feel like I couldn't be happier with myself, my body, my partner, and my life. We're poor as heck in monetary value, but I still feel like the wealthiest person alive right now (still, it's too bad pure love energy can't pay the rent XD)
--
You guys already know too much about me, but who is this PoX guy anyways?
If you've been a part of my Livestream, you've probably seen him a few times- he's often in the background, being shirtless and swinging glowsticks around. Actually he's been paid to do shows of swinging lights on strings around before and is absolutely amazing at the art of Poi. His fursona is a Margay, which is a small jungle tree cat related to the Ocelot and I've also helped draw his official reference sheet. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11210508/
He's 2 years older than me (that's a first) and has a bachelor's degree in Computer Science, hence the nickname "Tech Support Kitty" He's also a practitioner of parkour and an avid LARPer/video gamer. His FA/DA pages are extremely bare, so best quick snapshot of him would be his YouTube channel:
https://www.youtube.com/user/PoXAzraelis
Riley ©
CanineHybridPoX ©
pox.azraelis
Category Artwork (Digital) / Doodle
Species Mammal (Other)
Size 1024 x 1024px
File Size 810.2 kB
Not selling stuff, so plenty of time to hang out. I may be found lurking at Monoyasha's table a lot but otherwise it's a vacation con for us :3 I've considered being a dealer there, but definitely want to actually experience the con first before doing something like that. Also traveling with stuff for a table would suck- I really admire those that do it.
I can totally see that! Haha well we have a room in the con's hotel! Lots of booze and lots of Cards Against Humanity will be happening! I was gonna say, making the trip more than a few states away to sell at a con takes a lot out of ya. But yeah! We will probably around her table too, considering we need a few things to make some suits for commissioners, lol but yeah! Vacations are awesome! Enjoy the con! Itll be our first MFF! :3 Itll be fun!
I would be much more better off with it if you had come clean with me. You told me you didn't see him as compatible and I had nothing to worry about because you wouldn't date him. You ended up sabotaging our relationship to be with him and ultimately hurting me beyond any threshold of pain I thought possible. I would be far less miserable if you actually gave me any decency through all of this, because I feel so stepped on. I feel like you used me to get you in a stable living situation and then you act like I did nothing for you so you could leave me. You were the closest friend I ever had and more, which is why I wanted you to at least talk to me after the breakup. If you don't want to at least tell me why, I deserve that much. Its funny how you said the same things to me "I couldn't be happier than I have been these past few months with myself, my body, my partner, and my life" as well as telling me "I love you" You said you meant it only to take it back. I can only hope that for once, you truly do mean it for the first time since you have told the same lie to me and Koosh. I mere ask why you weren't truthful to me and why you won't talk to me...
(Ive already accepted that im irreparably the the "bad guy" in this, so whatever hateful comments the defensive fans have to say will be ignored)
(Ive already accepted that im irreparably the the "bad guy" in this, so whatever hateful comments the defensive fans have to say will be ignored)
Regardless of how valid your claims may or may not be...
Creating a new FA account for the sole purpose of evading a block is considered harassment, which is frowned upon by FA policy. (Refer to Code of Conduct sections 1.4 and 1.6.)
Yes, breakups suck. Yes, you will probably never completely understand why it happened, or how much worse you make it every time you bemoan Riley's decisions or throw around more accusations and conspiracy theories. What's done is done, and what you've lost, you've lost. Continuing to obsess like a drug addict is only doing further damage to your reputation and your psyche. Stop it, and move on!
Creating a new FA account for the sole purpose of evading a block is considered harassment, which is frowned upon by FA policy. (Refer to Code of Conduct sections 1.4 and 1.6.)
Yes, breakups suck. Yes, you will probably never completely understand why it happened, or how much worse you make it every time you bemoan Riley's decisions or throw around more accusations and conspiracy theories. What's done is done, and what you've lost, you've lost. Continuing to obsess like a drug addict is only doing further damage to your reputation and your psyche. Stop it, and move on!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS
I too have experienced love like I never thought I could.
I remember one of the last times we hung out, I was trying to explain to you how deeply I felt about my Mate and how much it pained me to be away from him. I hope you know my feels now
My Mate brings me so much joy in my life, he's changed my life in so many amazing ways and I couldn't be happier with how we've been living for (almost) three years.
I can't express to you how happy it makes me to hear these amazing words from you
I remember seeing you at RMFC, I sort of watched you because I couldn't recognize you. You ARE so happy, I could tell in every way, like a different person. I watch You and PoX together... I watched you guys interact and love each other and I don't think I've ever gotten a better feeling in my entire life.
In the little time I've known PoX, he has opened his arms and friendship to me, You guys are the perfect match. He is so friendly, loving and accepting!
AND HOLY POOPS I didn't know PoX was a computer science kitty! My Mate is a network engineer/computer engineer! We neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to get them together!!!
I too have experienced love like I never thought I could.
I remember one of the last times we hung out, I was trying to explain to you how deeply I felt about my Mate and how much it pained me to be away from him. I hope you know my feels now
My Mate brings me so much joy in my life, he's changed my life in so many amazing ways and I couldn't be happier with how we've been living for (almost) three years.
I can't express to you how happy it makes me to hear these amazing words from you
I remember seeing you at RMFC, I sort of watched you because I couldn't recognize you. You ARE so happy, I could tell in every way, like a different person. I watch You and PoX together... I watched you guys interact and love each other and I don't think I've ever gotten a better feeling in my entire life.
In the little time I've known PoX, he has opened his arms and friendship to me, You guys are the perfect match. He is so friendly, loving and accepting!
AND HOLY POOPS I didn't know PoX was a computer science kitty! My Mate is a network engineer/computer engineer! We neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to get them together!!!
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