and especially with what is going on, it happen so fast...
I think I make it all worse just because I had expectation, expectation for better days, for someone to get me out of emptyness pf mine I've been in for years.
But how knew that it would all be the same ? The place is different but the people are the same, I can't just pass a all year like that again, not anymore, not now.
Because with this, they want me to be strong, to be brave, they say I can make it, they say they will "help". But how can I be what they want, when I'm still straggling with the seem deep and strong feeling that keep on growing evertime I'm faceing those person of my age I can't see myself being part of. I can't believe what they say, yes I need help, but the kind of help I need is this one that so far have just been a miracle that never last.