I have anxiety problems myself, so I can definitely relate. D:

It feels so horrible, I just want my brain to stop.

I know, right? It's one of those moments where you're like- you want to just stop thinking, but at the same time, you don't want to because you really want to know how everything's going to turn out.

Then I work myself up and I want to barf. .n.

I came close to throwing up. but I burried myself in some art and was able to calm down enough.
So now I'm just jumpy

Ah, glad you could at least calm yourself down. ^^;

Are you taking medication for your anxiety, per any chance?

no I am not. sometimes I think I should be. :T

Oh god, that's terrible! You should probably see a psychiatrist. I take anxiety medication as well as mood stabilizers and I feel more mellow than the late Bob Marley. X3

All I need is to not get triggered. It's the not knowing that will trigger a really big attack. and I haven't really had one like this in a long time. It's because I'm trying to get a new job and it takes them forever to answer my e-mails about when the last interview is going to be, so i'm just on pins and needles waiting to know when, if it's gonna be today, or tomorrow or next week...

Hm…I see. I can get triggered even when I'm on my medication, to be honest, and when I do, I get all those symptoms, so I guess you're onto something.

However, yeah, job applications are a pain in the balls.

There is only one thing that calms me down enough, but I haven't been able to be with him alone for almost a week now, and this week just everything started happening.

Awwr…incredibly sorry to hear. .n. Wish there was some way I could help. :c

it's a new day, I feel a bit better.

I'm so glad to hear! ~<3