Now I say silent pain because thats what it stands for. Pain that i keep hidden and locked away. Only recently did it come out and break me down. Im not used to telling others when im hurt, depressed, angry, i keep it to myself, cuz i want to overcome it on my own. It's how its been for years... Im usually the strong one, the leader, whether i want to be or not. So breaking down is hard for me, makes me feel weak, vulnerable. And i dont like to let anyone see me that way. Lately everything has been depressing, and it makes mine so much worse. Im like a sponge to that this, taking depression from those who dump it on me, probably why people are drawn to me when it comes to advice and such... anyway. I read all these statuses of people who are depressed and sad and get annoyed, to be honest with you. Their depression will go away, mine never will. It's something i struggle with on a daily basis and will, probably, for the rest of my life. So to see people consistently complain about it bugs me. That may be cold of me, but frankly, i dont care, its how i feel. Alot of this has also been due to a change in my.. environment? not sure how you would word it, but its an unhappy change. Lots of over thinking involved here too, which doesnt help my cause.

This picture helped quite abit with venting emotions in a way i couldnt think of, and its not even my picture >.> My sister sketched this out a week or so ago, all i did was in and color. But it helped, nonetheless.

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