Title borrowed from Daniwolf - it's really quite good and very fitting! Daniwolf originally used it to describe a picture where her character was pregnant forever and whilst not quite as much of a fan of pregnancy the idea of permanence does have its appeals <3

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Cassie was a normal deer girl, more or less. A loving family, all the food she could eat and care she could need. But she wasn't strictly normal in every sense. As a child, little more then 5 she would stuff pillows down her shirt and pretend to be fat. Her curiosity with being big only developed as she grew older. It wasn't long before as an 18 year old she took a tire pump and began to pump up her tummy on a regular basis, just to feel it puff out. She would pretend she was fat, or pregnant. Really it was just so thrilling to be … different, even if it was only in private.

But these pumping sessions were so... ephemeral. The air would find its way out and she'd be back to normal in a few hours. Cassie longed for something that would last longer. Her eye was quickly caught by TrimFast, a weight loss product that worked by filling the stomach up with tiny beads that expand upon contact with moisture. They lasted a life time and the goal was that with these little beads inside you it was hard to feel very hungry. Without her parents permission Cassie quickly moved to obtain some of these beads. Stuff that expands in her stomach? Maybe she'd have her puffy look after all!

Initially it was only meant to be a little. She gorged herself on the little beads until her stomach stuck out a few inches. It was enough to make her squirm all night, blushing furiously at just how chubby she'd made herself look. Her parents put her on a diet but of course she wasn't really fat to begin with so the diet did nothing. But for Cassie, it was never enough. Every night she found herself eating more and more of the beads, her stomach getting bigger and bigger until... well more then just her parents began to notice.

By the time Cassie was able to bring herself to stop it was too late, she looked so hugely fat. Eventually her parents found out about her activities and brought her to a doctor but he said that now her stomach relied on the beads to hold its shape, it had been so stretched. To remove them would be nothing short of dangerous.

So now Cassie wears her shame around her stomach, sloshing gently with the slightest movement. She's teased at school and gets little reprieve at home from disappointed parents. What's worse is... with the shame and humiliation... deep down...

she still wants more.