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[rant ahead]
This seems to be a reoccuring thing... Everyday on the evening, somewhere between 10pm to 2am I feel down. First I feel like doing something fun and have some little free time, I try to do something, perhaps play a game or so but then I just... blargh, it won't feel like anything. I try to talk to people but it feels like everyone is gone at the time. I'm not sure if it's just me feeling like that. But at the time to me it feels like everyones having fun with their friends and I'm left out from everything. I feel really lonely even though I have plenty friends and generally everything is really well in my life.
Then I can't get myself to do anything anymore. I just want to cry it out or rant, but I don't want to bother anyone with it since they're all having fun. I know plenty have told me that I can talk to them anytime... But I just don't... I'd like to talk to people I'm close to but nobody is ever available at the time when I'm down. Maybe I'm down because they arent available.
And before you do it, e-hugs wont really help, I wish I could talk or would go and talk with someone who I can trust and someone who knows me better... maybe I don't have enough of those friends since I always run into the same problem.
It bothers me tho, cause it's several hours away from time I could be working on stuff and get things done. But all I do is just blargh at things and stare at the screen.
And then later I cheer up and result into staying up really late. It just seems to cycle around like that.... blagh
I guess there was some symbolism in this drawing. I drew this yesterday when I had a similar feeling, now it's here again. Even if I was cheered up last night... it just keeps coming back.
This seems to be a reoccuring thing... Everyday on the evening, somewhere between 10pm to 2am I feel down. First I feel like doing something fun and have some little free time, I try to do something, perhaps play a game or so but then I just... blargh, it won't feel like anything. I try to talk to people but it feels like everyone is gone at the time. I'm not sure if it's just me feeling like that. But at the time to me it feels like everyones having fun with their friends and I'm left out from everything. I feel really lonely even though I have plenty friends and generally everything is really well in my life.
Then I can't get myself to do anything anymore. I just want to cry it out or rant, but I don't want to bother anyone with it since they're all having fun. I know plenty have told me that I can talk to them anytime... But I just don't... I'd like to talk to people I'm close to but nobody is ever available at the time when I'm down. Maybe I'm down because they arent available.
And before you do it, e-hugs wont really help, I wish I could talk or would go and talk with someone who I can trust and someone who knows me better... maybe I don't have enough of those friends since I always run into the same problem.
It bothers me tho, cause it's several hours away from time I could be working on stuff and get things done. But all I do is just blargh at things and stare at the screen.
And then later I cheer up and result into staying up really late. It just seems to cycle around like that.... blagh
I guess there was some symbolism in this drawing. I drew this yesterday when I had a similar feeling, now it's here again. Even if I was cheered up last night... it just keeps coming back.
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thats like what time im usually the most active :o
but yeah it usually get quiet unless people are drinking or something for me.
and yeah talk anytime means bug them when your feeling down cause they should take time out of what there doing to help by listening o3o i know i do that for my friends at least or try.
but yeah it usually get quiet unless people are drinking or something for me.
and yeah talk anytime means bug them when your feeling down cause they should take time out of what there doing to help by listening o3o i know i do that for my friends at least or try.
that used to be the time when people were active before. This might be cause I used to do fun stuff with friends at that time but I no longer have the opportunity to... I don't play the same games or dont share the same interests with anyone so I'm just on my own now .-.
I'm the same way. Restless, lonely, wanting to do something but not having the energy or inspiration to actually do anything. I'll open a game just to close it again. I'm to shy/introverted to talk to anyone. Actually missed a week of work recently because I was too tired and stressed out. Then a week later I'll be fine for awhile before the cycle starts again. All my close friends live an hour or more away and don't come by very often, so I'm solitary most of the time. Really, I think I just need a good long hug.
Man, that sounds so much like me, if I'm reading that right. There have been several times where I just want to talk to someone, but no one is on, and I want to do something, but no one to do it with, and I just lose motivation to do anything else productive because of it. It's one of the worst feelings I get, and I hate it. And it's usually around that same time of night as well.
I understand that very well. Its not that you don't have an opportunity to talk or be with people. It's that you don't have the opportunity to talk to be with the people that matter to you, or that you want to talk to. You feel lonely, you want someone that matters to you would reach out to you and ask "are you doing ok?" but no one ever does. You could always talk to Randomguy27, but you don't have the same emotional connection with them, and at that moment you don't feel like trying to establish the groundwork to make that kind of connection.
It's a hard place to be, I'm there often and I feel for you. I wish I had advice to offer, but I haven't figured that one out. Even if I did, I'm still just some random Internet user who has happened to empathize with you. I hope you get this resolved, being in that place really sucks.
Also, I like your picture :3
It's a hard place to be, I'm there often and I feel for you. I wish I had advice to offer, but I haven't figured that one out. Even if I did, I'm still just some random Internet user who has happened to empathize with you. I hope you get this resolved, being in that place really sucks.
Also, I like your picture :3
I'm up until about 2 AM every night, although that's in the eastern time zone. I don't know what time zone you're in, but if the time works out and you want someone to chat with, and don't mind a boring middle-aged slob, find me sometime. Skyfox_0 on yahoo messenger. I totally understand where you're coming from with wanting so much to simply have someone to talk to. It's hard to make connections with people, especially those you barely know, but sometimes you have to push through any apprehensions and see what you find.
This probably hardly makes any sense nor is the case, but thought I'd write up what crossed my mind anyways >.>
I was thinking if the key to this could lie in that time, 10pm to 2am... Could it be, that it's when your body tries to tell you it's tired in some odd stupid way during that time? Since (I think?) tiredness and full awakenness come and go in cycles, it could be that that one phase ends around 2am and that's when you start feeling energized again and get stuff done, switching you back into the positiviness state of mind?
Regardless of whatever it is, I hope you'll feel better soon :3
I was thinking if the key to this could lie in that time, 10pm to 2am... Could it be, that it's when your body tries to tell you it's tired in some odd stupid way during that time? Since (I think?) tiredness and full awakenness come and go in cycles, it could be that that one phase ends around 2am and that's when you start feeling energized again and get stuff done, switching you back into the positiviness state of mind?
Regardless of whatever it is, I hope you'll feel better soon :3
Hmm or it could also be just the other way around cause I first feel like doing something fun but then there's nothing to do so I get bored and then I feel down cause I'm bored. But it could still be related. I've been thinking that this might be cause I used to do fun stuff around this time before, I'm kind of always waiting for it for the day but then nothing fun happens so I'm upset :o
That would make sense, yeah *shrugs*
You could try watching some series or movies? Sometimes when gaming alone just doesn't cut it, movies and series does the trick for me. Then again it might take a while before you find something you get interested enough to get carried away with...
You could try watching some series or movies? Sometimes when gaming alone just doesn't cut it, movies and series does the trick for me. Then again it might take a while before you find something you get interested enough to get carried away with...
I'd be glad to give you a shoulder to cry on/a neck to wring when everything's bad. I try to stay up at night... but I usually spend my day looking for jobs and stuff.
I'd be glad to chat you up on skype... I know it isn't as good as having a friend next to you when you really need one...
But I'll do my best to cheer you up, kay?
I'd be glad to chat you up on skype... I know it isn't as good as having a friend next to you when you really need one...
But I'll do my best to cheer you up, kay?
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