https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iPQP7aDe_Y

I almost did not want to put this down here, because it would probably be too personal, but this has to be brought up right now.
I am not holding anything back.

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Over the course of three-and-a-something years, I remember how we'd to spend our time; whether it was goofing off, playing together, idle chatter, or something else (Or even getting "naughty", but we'll keep the details between us xD).
I was simply a spectator at the time, but little by little, (Whether you were aware of it or not) you helped me break out of that zone with your actions.
Maybe this is stretching it a little, but I wanted to believe in others again because of you, even though I still sort of struggle with the idea today.

Also, compared to you, I still barely exist to others out there.
But I always feel relevant whenever you take your time to spend it with me.

Now comes the elephant in the room: Our lives have changed in some way or another and I can see that our enthusiasm is taking a gradual, yet somewhat steep decline. I don't want to say that I am disappointed with this outcome, but I can't seem to find find any other words to describe it. If I am wrong about it, then I am wrong about it.

You seem to be unsure as to where to go next.
I sort of know where to go, but I put myself at some risk of physical harm or even death by doing so.
Whatever the case, we are both discouraged by our situations, as well as having a pile of other issues we have to sort out ourselves.

About a week and a half ago, my dad word-for-word called you out as a jerk and not being true for what's been going on.
Naturally, I took great offense to it and didn't want to believe it.
And yet, something tells me that there may be some truth to it. But again, I don't want to believe it.

Yes, I am aware that we change.
Yes, I am aware that we have different forms of work to do.
And yes, I am aware that our time together probably hasn't been as long as some of the other folks we tend to be with.

But all of that doesn't mean that our time so far hasn't been and can't continue to be meaningful in a plethora of ways. In fact, I think that it truly has been life-changing for me. Whether or not it has been the same for you is your call.

We are both afraid to reach out to each other and those around us, but it more than likely does not have to stay that way for long.

While this whole thing is personally to you, this scenario doesn't limit just to you.
Sil, Lani, Karu, Meta, Vam, and others here and elsewhere played out in similar ways like this to varying degrees.

Our goofy banter may be exactly that; just goofy banter.
But it's goofy banter that I still keep close to my heart, even after all this time.
If there is any way we can continue to do so every now and then, it would be a joy to do so.

I guess I'm spouting hot air at this point, so here's the TL;DR version, if you want:

I still care about you.
The question is: Do you return that notion?

I don't intend to drive you away with all this and that, for it is a lot to take in...
But I await your response.

Oh, and a very happy birthday goes out to you, Sir Big-Ears.
Stay safe~

-Karma

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