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This is... Different.
I honestly can't think of a better word for it. I guess you could call it a Personal Analysis of myself and my "Habits." Those who've followed Of The Wilds for the past few years will find this somewhat familiar. He kinda gave me the idea of it. Though his are usually more on the comedy side to things, while this one just has a few moments of humor.
I want to start off by saying that all of this is true. I actually do feel this way in real life, to the point where I've isolated myself from the world. I've actually lived through everything that's stated in here, regardless of how it seems like "too much." And these people... They are real, but only to me. And though I'm somewhat disappointed that I could not fit more into this (be it more characters, or more information of what happened), I believe it's better off this way.
However, there is something I'd like to add to one of the scenes. The one with Lyago in it is a bit hard to describe the atmosphere, so I posted an image I made a long time ago within my scraps: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15132701/ Hopefully it will help you understand a bit more of this rather complex scene.
I'm still not really sure why I wrote this. I'm not looking for sympathy or empathy, and I know everyone has their own baggage. I suppose I'm just trying what Tia said about Pain Bringing People Together. Well... Here is my Pain:
Where The Frost Rose Withers © The Unguided (Mild Vocals, 2/5)
I honestly can't think of a better word for it. I guess you could call it a Personal Analysis of myself and my "Habits." Those who've followed Of The Wilds for the past few years will find this somewhat familiar. He kinda gave me the idea of it. Though his are usually more on the comedy side to things, while this one just has a few moments of humor.
I want to start off by saying that all of this is true. I actually do feel this way in real life, to the point where I've isolated myself from the world. I've actually lived through everything that's stated in here, regardless of how it seems like "too much." And these people... They are real, but only to me. And though I'm somewhat disappointed that I could not fit more into this (be it more characters, or more information of what happened), I believe it's better off this way.
However, there is something I'd like to add to one of the scenes. The one with Lyago in it is a bit hard to describe the atmosphere, so I posted an image I made a long time ago within my scraps: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15132701/ Hopefully it will help you understand a bit more of this rather complex scene.
I'm still not really sure why I wrote this. I'm not looking for sympathy or empathy, and I know everyone has their own baggage. I suppose I'm just trying what Tia said about Pain Bringing People Together. Well... Here is my Pain:
Where The Frost Rose Withers © The Unguided (Mild Vocals, 2/5)
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Hi there,
This is indeed a bit different then I would have expected, but nonetheless a well written story! I liked the way you brought the story with the interaction between you and story (and some unknown) characters. But I feel sympathy for you that the story has truly happened. Nobody deserves such suffering, albeit there are unfortunately worse situations which also cannot always be helped/prevented.. And it's sometimes hard to do the 'right' thing.. if such thing exists; but that made the ending message all the nicer. It was brought nicely with the story buildup and I think it was a nice closure to the story and a message true to its words. I don't think I have much to say anything else about it..
I realize its a bit of a different comment (and a bit shorter) then I normally try to write but if you want to hear my thoughts about certain subjects brought into the story, just ask! The music was fitting, and thank you for giving somewhat more context to the story with the screen; it all added more value to your story.
Again, have some nice holidays, and take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
This is indeed a bit different then I would have expected, but nonetheless a well written story! I liked the way you brought the story with the interaction between you and story (and some unknown) characters. But I feel sympathy for you that the story has truly happened. Nobody deserves such suffering, albeit there are unfortunately worse situations which also cannot always be helped/prevented.. And it's sometimes hard to do the 'right' thing.. if such thing exists; but that made the ending message all the nicer. It was brought nicely with the story buildup and I think it was a nice closure to the story and a message true to its words. I don't think I have much to say anything else about it..
I realize its a bit of a different comment (and a bit shorter) then I normally try to write but if you want to hear my thoughts about certain subjects brought into the story, just ask! The music was fitting, and thank you for giving somewhat more context to the story with the screen; it all added more value to your story.
Again, have some nice holidays, and take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
To be honest, I keep questioning myself on why I wrote this story. I've told this tale a hundred different times to a hundred different people who all thought they could somehow fix me. In the end, it was one of the reasons why I shelled myself from society. Especially in a small town, where the only thing people would know about you are all these horrible things that's happened to you in your life. And that is a horrible conversation starter: "How are you holding up?"
It's something that I've always struggled with, along with the idea of Holidays. Though, Wilds did help me understand that a bit more with his new piece Pictures In The Snow (I won't spoil anything if you haven't read that one yet.) I guess every once in a while you just have to try again. See things in a different perspective, or a different way. A way that appeals more, not only to yourself, but perhaps someone else as well. And these past 8~9 months, you've shown so much promise Silent. I feel like I can rely and confide in you. To the point where I'm half wondering why I'm not doing this in a Note (Whatever).
My point is, out of all the bad things that's happened over the years; all of the events that almost forced me to see people who are not even there. Have conversations with them out loud, sometimes in public. To make new "parents", friends, companions, all because the ones in real life couldn't support me or see me for what I was. It all warped my mind to adjust and to deal with it all. But... That actually leads to a quote of Deago's: "You Are Changing Into A More Powerful, Resilient Version Of Yourself. No Matter What Your Final Form, It Is An Expression Of Your True Nature."
I'm a pessimist by default, that's already been said. I naturally always see the negative in everything before I can see the positive. But with you, Silent... I don't see a Negative. I never have. And that's probably why I felt like trying this again, just in a more enjoyable form. Thank you for hearing me out. Reading the words of an old hermit, and giving him comfort. As well as support over the years. Thank you very kindly, it really means alot. (And I detest how that almost looks like sarcasm! It really isn't)
As for your "Thoughts about certain subjects of the story" I'm actually very curious of what you mean, and would love to hear your opinions if/when you have time. Until then, take care of yourself, and happy new year.
It's something that I've always struggled with, along with the idea of Holidays. Though, Wilds did help me understand that a bit more with his new piece Pictures In The Snow (I won't spoil anything if you haven't read that one yet.) I guess every once in a while you just have to try again. See things in a different perspective, or a different way. A way that appeals more, not only to yourself, but perhaps someone else as well. And these past 8~9 months, you've shown so much promise Silent. I feel like I can rely and confide in you. To the point where I'm half wondering why I'm not doing this in a Note (Whatever).
My point is, out of all the bad things that's happened over the years; all of the events that almost forced me to see people who are not even there. Have conversations with them out loud, sometimes in public. To make new "parents", friends, companions, all because the ones in real life couldn't support me or see me for what I was. It all warped my mind to adjust and to deal with it all. But... That actually leads to a quote of Deago's: "You Are Changing Into A More Powerful, Resilient Version Of Yourself. No Matter What Your Final Form, It Is An Expression Of Your True Nature."
I'm a pessimist by default, that's already been said. I naturally always see the negative in everything before I can see the positive. But with you, Silent... I don't see a Negative. I never have. And that's probably why I felt like trying this again, just in a more enjoyable form. Thank you for hearing me out. Reading the words of an old hermit, and giving him comfort. As well as support over the years. Thank you very kindly, it really means alot. (And I detest how that almost looks like sarcasm! It really isn't)
As for your "Thoughts about certain subjects of the story" I'm actually very curious of what you mean, and would love to hear your opinions if/when you have time. Until then, take care of yourself, and happy new year.
Hey,
You too, have a (late) happy new year! And thank you very much for your kind words, it really means a lot! I wanted to reply somewhat sooner but I could not really form the right words..
I think you do not have to think bad about people thinking that about you; you can admit the situations you endured were really heavy. But yeah, their reaction is indeed understandable, and yours too. Its a bit difficult to say things about it from my perspective; I do not really think I have much life experience yet. The Pictures In The Snow story just brought maybe the best advice as you said; trying again with a different perspective.
I can see why your saying that would lead to the quote of Deago; and I think it is difficult to really change to your True Nature. With always the thought trying to fit in and following a bit of the 'proper behaviour'-rules(etiquette?).. But yes I can find that would be true.
And thank you for saying that; I always try to be optimistic/positive about situations. At least that's what I am trying to be; trying to be kind and helpful enough for some people. I have so my flaws I must say; I am mostly to shy to act out and be helpful (as with commenting goes still combined with some nervousness). But sometimes the small kind gestures are enough I think. Approaching subjects where you feel against doing have sometimes just be approached from a more positive point of view.
As for the last part I wrote; I did not really mean anything special; and I wrote it rather vague :P I thought more about some general questions or if you wanted to talk about some other stuff; but some comments: I think what I gathered from this story you seem sometimes to doubt yourself too much; e.g. in story writing: your stories bring so much more then just being a story; really they are an experience with very much alive characters. Additionally, the detail level is I would say is excellent; the experience and situations are detailed enough; and similarities/reference with/to somebody's other work would probably not seen when you are really into the story. But sometimes they say an artists has to doubt a bit in his/hers work; as you are truly an artist with words.
So yes, again very positive; because I do not find really negatives in your works; and spelling/grammar is always difficult to get 100% right; as I fail most of the times a bit with that stuff :P But I would easily classify it as high quality stories which you would found published in stores.
And a bit of a general but difficult question; you mentioned you studied literature: Do you have recommendations for some must experience works? Or games of anything like that? Its always difficult to really pick some outstanding games/literature experiences. Or do you recommend the games mentioned in your story? I am a bit more of a music (playing myself piano like stuff) and casual gamer, but sometimes media can bring some insightful/enjoyable perspectives/experiences.
I think this comment is now needs some closure as is growing a bit long..
Again you're welcome, you really deserve better after going after all of that. And I apologize for the very late reply; but you too, take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
You too, have a (late) happy new year! And thank you very much for your kind words, it really means a lot! I wanted to reply somewhat sooner but I could not really form the right words..
I think you do not have to think bad about people thinking that about you; you can admit the situations you endured were really heavy. But yeah, their reaction is indeed understandable, and yours too. Its a bit difficult to say things about it from my perspective; I do not really think I have much life experience yet. The Pictures In The Snow story just brought maybe the best advice as you said; trying again with a different perspective.
I can see why your saying that would lead to the quote of Deago; and I think it is difficult to really change to your True Nature. With always the thought trying to fit in and following a bit of the 'proper behaviour'-rules(etiquette?).. But yes I can find that would be true.
And thank you for saying that; I always try to be optimistic/positive about situations. At least that's what I am trying to be; trying to be kind and helpful enough for some people. I have so my flaws I must say; I am mostly to shy to act out and be helpful (as with commenting goes still combined with some nervousness). But sometimes the small kind gestures are enough I think. Approaching subjects where you feel against doing have sometimes just be approached from a more positive point of view.
As for the last part I wrote; I did not really mean anything special; and I wrote it rather vague :P I thought more about some general questions or if you wanted to talk about some other stuff; but some comments: I think what I gathered from this story you seem sometimes to doubt yourself too much; e.g. in story writing: your stories bring so much more then just being a story; really they are an experience with very much alive characters. Additionally, the detail level is I would say is excellent; the experience and situations are detailed enough; and similarities/reference with/to somebody's other work would probably not seen when you are really into the story. But sometimes they say an artists has to doubt a bit in his/hers work; as you are truly an artist with words.
So yes, again very positive; because I do not find really negatives in your works; and spelling/grammar is always difficult to get 100% right; as I fail most of the times a bit with that stuff :P But I would easily classify it as high quality stories which you would found published in stores.
And a bit of a general but difficult question; you mentioned you studied literature: Do you have recommendations for some must experience works? Or games of anything like that? Its always difficult to really pick some outstanding games/literature experiences. Or do you recommend the games mentioned in your story? I am a bit more of a music (playing myself piano like stuff) and casual gamer, but sometimes media can bring some insightful/enjoyable perspectives/experiences.
I think this comment is now needs some closure as is growing a bit long..
Again you're welcome, you really deserve better after going after all of that. And I apologize for the very late reply; but you too, take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
"I think what I gathered from this story you seem sometimes to doubt yourself too much; e.g. in story writing: your stories bring so much more then just being a story; really they are an experience with very much alive characters. Additionally, the detail level is I would say is excellent; the experience and situations are detailed enough; and similarities/reference with/to somebody's other work would probably not seen when you are really into the story. But sometimes they say an artists has to doubt a bit in his/hers work; as you are truly an artist with words.
So yes, again very positive; because I do not find really negatives in your works; and spelling/grammar is always difficult to get 100% right; as I fail most of the times a bit with that stuff :P But I would easily classify it as high quality stories which you would found published in stores."
This... Wow. This is probably the most meaningful, holiday(ish) gift I've gotten in a very long time: Confidence. Thank you for taking the time to think and write that, because now I feel like that I'm not doing anything wrong with this hobby. I would never describe it as a "waste of time" or anything horribly negative, but the lack of attention it seems to get sometimes, from online to offline, just brings me down. And usually into those doubtful thoughts, thinking that maybe I'm doing something wrong. But to be perfectly honest, all I really need is someone like you.
But speaking of the stories, the next section to Wrong/Heaven is getting done. I know it's been in production for a while, but things got a bit... Messy here. And I have been a bit distracted worrying about them. But I've been working on it quite often this past week, currently at 79 pages. I should have that section done by this week. Not really sure if it's going to be the last one of that series or not.
Recommendations? Hmm. I've never been too much of a paperback reader myself. I honestly got annoyed by alot of the books I tended to read that were about humans (again, that discrimination, Bartan.) I remember trying to read Steven King's The Mist once, but couldn't get into it (though, I did enjoy the movie). If you can even find them anymore, alot of my favorites growing up were actually the Fear Street Saga novels by R.L. Stine, the same guy who wrote the Goosebumps books. The Saga ones were very underrated, which was a shame really. I found them to be that perfect balance of Mature: being about the supernatural, without any of the common horror movie traits (sex scenes/nudity, swearing, predictable endings, etc.) I remember my favorite one being Heart of the Hunter.
As for the stories in games, that's a hard one to really say. Everyone experiences games a little differently, but... If I had to make some suggestions, many of them would probably be ones you've heard of before: Silent Hill 2, Metal Gear Solid, Kingdom Hearts (1 & 2). I enjoyed Chrono Trigger and Lufia 2 when it came to the super nintendo games. Though the Final Fantasies tend to have their share of good stories, it's often made them be very long games (60+ hours, most) so there's alot of investment there.
I can't think of too much more. But alot of the time when I was growing up, I was making my own stories with music. Making my own characters and 'playing with them' kinda like toys in the beginning. After letting them go off on their own and just watching them... I think that's when things really started to blossom in my creativity. And that effort was then turned into Entropy's War.
Sometimes though, I half wonder if I've gotten a bit too attached to it, in an "Old School Hollywood" sort of way (meaning, people often say that the past was much better, but really... It actually wasn't as good as they think it was. This happens a lot with movies.) But those are my suggestions for now. Good luck trying to get a hold of some of the older stuff though Some of it is very hard to find nowadays.
Speaking of long comments... Heh.
As always, it's amazing to hear from you again Silent. Any suggestions you might have yourself for such things, I will gladly look into. Until then, stay safe, and I hope you enjoy The Wrong Side Of Heaven - Only Inhuman... When I get it finished
So yes, again very positive; because I do not find really negatives in your works; and spelling/grammar is always difficult to get 100% right; as I fail most of the times a bit with that stuff :P But I would easily classify it as high quality stories which you would found published in stores."
This... Wow. This is probably the most meaningful, holiday(ish) gift I've gotten in a very long time: Confidence. Thank you for taking the time to think and write that, because now I feel like that I'm not doing anything wrong with this hobby. I would never describe it as a "waste of time" or anything horribly negative, but the lack of attention it seems to get sometimes, from online to offline, just brings me down. And usually into those doubtful thoughts, thinking that maybe I'm doing something wrong. But to be perfectly honest, all I really need is someone like you.
But speaking of the stories, the next section to Wrong/Heaven is getting done. I know it's been in production for a while, but things got a bit... Messy here. And I have been a bit distracted worrying about them. But I've been working on it quite often this past week, currently at 79 pages. I should have that section done by this week. Not really sure if it's going to be the last one of that series or not.
Recommendations? Hmm. I've never been too much of a paperback reader myself. I honestly got annoyed by alot of the books I tended to read that were about humans (again, that discrimination, Bartan.) I remember trying to read Steven King's The Mist once, but couldn't get into it (though, I did enjoy the movie). If you can even find them anymore, alot of my favorites growing up were actually the Fear Street Saga novels by R.L. Stine, the same guy who wrote the Goosebumps books. The Saga ones were very underrated, which was a shame really. I found them to be that perfect balance of Mature: being about the supernatural, without any of the common horror movie traits (sex scenes/nudity, swearing, predictable endings, etc.) I remember my favorite one being Heart of the Hunter.
As for the stories in games, that's a hard one to really say. Everyone experiences games a little differently, but... If I had to make some suggestions, many of them would probably be ones you've heard of before: Silent Hill 2, Metal Gear Solid, Kingdom Hearts (1 & 2). I enjoyed Chrono Trigger and Lufia 2 when it came to the super nintendo games. Though the Final Fantasies tend to have their share of good stories, it's often made them be very long games (60+ hours, most) so there's alot of investment there.
I can't think of too much more. But alot of the time when I was growing up, I was making my own stories with music. Making my own characters and 'playing with them' kinda like toys in the beginning. After letting them go off on their own and just watching them... I think that's when things really started to blossom in my creativity. And that effort was then turned into Entropy's War.
Sometimes though, I half wonder if I've gotten a bit too attached to it, in an "Old School Hollywood" sort of way (meaning, people often say that the past was much better, but really... It actually wasn't as good as they think it was. This happens a lot with movies.) But those are my suggestions for now. Good luck trying to get a hold of some of the older stuff though Some of it is very hard to find nowadays.
Speaking of long comments... Heh.
As always, it's amazing to hear from you again Silent. Any suggestions you might have yourself for such things, I will gladly look into. Until then, stay safe, and I hope you enjoy The Wrong Side Of Heaven - Only Inhuman... When I get it finished
Hi, thanks for the quick reply !
Again you're very much welcome!
Really, take your time when writing and if things do not go well at your end, do not worry for some delay! I hope everything will be alright in time; and I trust you will take the right decisions about that. But as you already posted it, I will read and try to comment soonish (in a week or 2 I hope).
Thank you very much for the suggestions, I will see if I can get my hands on some of the games and books mentioned (maybe find an emulator for the older/console games as I do not have any consoles..(only DS and 2DS if you can call those consoles) ). but I am afraid it will take some time before that will happen. I will keep it somewhere as an reminder when I have some more spare time again! I think Stephen King's the Mist will probably be available somewhere, but the others will be challenging! The Fear Street Sage sounds definitely like something I would to read.
I know that feeling that in "good old days" certain things seemed nicer then are experienced today! But I will see if I can get it in one way or another and see myself :P And I am willing to invest time into series when they are enjoyable.
As for myself thinking about suggestions; I can't really think of anything special, one fantasy book maybe I enjoyed a while ago; the Landover series from Terry Brooks. Unfortunately, I could only read the first part before they removed the whole series from the library because the books where in a bad shape.. A fantasy book which started a bit slow, but was quite enjoyable after that!
And likewise Dexdor/Bartan, it is always nice to hear and see things from your side. And thank you, but you too, take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
Again you're very much welcome!
Really, take your time when writing and if things do not go well at your end, do not worry for some delay! I hope everything will be alright in time; and I trust you will take the right decisions about that. But as you already posted it, I will read and try to comment soonish (in a week or 2 I hope).
Thank you very much for the suggestions, I will see if I can get my hands on some of the games and books mentioned (maybe find an emulator for the older/console games as I do not have any consoles..(only DS and 2DS if you can call those consoles) ). but I am afraid it will take some time before that will happen. I will keep it somewhere as an reminder when I have some more spare time again! I think Stephen King's the Mist will probably be available somewhere, but the others will be challenging! The Fear Street Sage sounds definitely like something I would to read.
I know that feeling that in "good old days" certain things seemed nicer then are experienced today! But I will see if I can get it in one way or another and see myself :P And I am willing to invest time into series when they are enjoyable.
As for myself thinking about suggestions; I can't really think of anything special, one fantasy book maybe I enjoyed a while ago; the Landover series from Terry Brooks. Unfortunately, I could only read the first part before they removed the whole series from the library because the books where in a bad shape.. A fantasy book which started a bit slow, but was quite enjoyable after that!
And likewise Dexdor/Bartan, it is always nice to hear and see things from your side. And thank you, but you too, take care!
- Silent Moonlight Dragon
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