You don't make me feel like I'm boring

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Went over a conversation today and ended up feeling bitter. We were trying to talk about our OCs and stuff but every time I tried to talk about mine, he'd interrupt me and start a new subject. Every SINGLE time. Even tho I read and listened and spoke of his.

See, it's you guys that make me feel anxious. You assholes who would do stuff like this. I listen to you guys talk about your sonas and OCs and shit, I take interest in them and be curious. But when it comes to me, no one wants to listen. No one asks. Case in point, I've been worrying that I've become boring over the years and that shows in my recent characters but as much as there are those who would tell me I'm not, there's everyone else who makes me feel like I am, and not only art-wise either

I bet none of you even want to talk to me about random shit or to even just chat. All you guys care about is, "Am I able to flirt or fuck this girl?" "Will I be able to squeeze into that category?" (AND YES, THERE ARE STILL SOME PEOPLE WHO WON'T TAKE NO FOR AN ANSWER) "Am I gonna get something free out of it?" "I wonder if I can steer her into giving me free crap?"

Ohhhh, but wait! Who am I kidding. It's furries I'm talking about, a good majority of you only care about getting your rocks off or getting free shit. So who cares about listening to me and whatever I'd like to share. Fuck that

And when it's SHOCKINGLY not the case about free shit, it's the case that you would make me feel like an awkward piece of shit and make me regret ever opening my trap about it. I feel like I'm boring others and they'd rather jump in front of a train than listen to my uninteresting shit

The only one I feel like doesn't do any of this bullshit is Azith and if you think it's been annoying that I can't help but bring him up now and then outta nowhere, news flash, it's cuz HE'S AMAZING and he's my go-to guy and thought when things feel awkward to me to the point where I feel like I'm gonna choke. He at least fucking listens and doesn't make me feel like a complete idiot when talking to him


TL;DR HAH FURRIES ARE ANNOYING ME AGAIN AND YOU GUYS SHOULD FUCK OFF FOR A WHILE


Why the fuckle am I getting the shit friends here and there

I'm mad and only certain people should talk to me right now. If you're unsure if you're a good friend to me, you prolly shouldn't talk to me atm. Just let me blow off steam here. Fuck's sake, guys


EDIT: Welp, an hour in and I'm told to not let these things push me down. No, it's not only Azith that helps, but he's the one that can get me out of these episodes the best and quickest out of everyone. But that doesn't mean he's the only one that helps. Good mentions are good, close friends. And I appreciate every good friend I have that proved in actually being here