The monster contained within, eager to be set free of his prison. He wants to roam among us in the "real world" but what is real? Is that just an illusion? All these questions, they swarm within.

I harbor this beast, the one that dwells within his prison. I want to have him free from his digital hell. I want to be seen as him and not myself, not the thing I am ashamed of. An armor if you will. I want to hide behind my alternate and not be who I am to society. I want my family, my friends, everyone to see me as this beast,this monster. To see that he is tamer than he is made out to be.



As silly as that sounds.. It is true. I want to free Lucifur from his digital state, I want nothing more for him to be real. The thought of being able to hide behind him.. gives me.. comfort.

take it how you will, this was just a random personal thing I worked on. I have been feeling pretty down.

I hope that one day, maybe one day, I can have a fursuit of him, my beloved Lucifur. Then maybe a good portion of my social anxiety will vanish as I will have that sense of protection. I will be able to show who I am more and not be the only one too scared to dance, talk, or have fun in public as well as at home. Maybe I will be able to use it as a therapy so I can get a job, get my life straight, and feel better about myself. u-u only time will tell.