It is because of my Nanny, whom despite had lost her husband and was aching, made sure that I was loved and happy. Little did She know how important her happiness was to me. It's also because of her, that I started to draw. After her Husband has passed I remember seeing her cry silently by herself. Even though I was really young at the time, and didn't fully understand the concept of death, it still stung. In her eyes I saw sadness and pain. Of course I missed her husband, both of them were my parent figures, but at the time I always assumed that when one dies, that god would bring them back one day. I couldn't stand seeing my nanny sad After all the effort she has put in me to make me happy. So I drew her a picture of the three of us hand in hand in a field of sunflowers. Even though they were simple stick figures, when I handed it to her she lit up. She treasured it, and seeing how happy I was able to make another by drawing, inspired me to continue drawing. For the next couple of months I'd draw at least one picture a week, and together we'd visit her husband's grave, placing the drawing and sunflowers on it. It's also from that experience that I learned patience. The first time and every time after, I promised her that we'll wait for her husband together, and reassured her that we just have to wait a little longer. As time passed I got a bit worried, that he didn't come back yet, so before we left I placed a Euro, thinking that perhaps he needed money to pay for his return. After she passed as well, I was at my lowest, I had lost another parent. As the years passed and had to be put in the mental hospital this/last fall for trying to commit suicide, I was given the medical and emotional support I needed. I came to terms, that she and her husband wouldn't have wanted me to have lived such a short life. I learned to turn my own pain, and guilt for not having the chance to show her how much they meant to me, into unconditional love for others. They taught me what unconditional love is, and if I could repay them in any way, it is to share that love with the people around me.