
Everything is different now
Vent Art.
My life has been extraordinarily hectic lately and a few things are huge changes that I'm having a very hard time dealing with.
I don't feel like anyone really understands how much it's affecting me, but if they did know then I'd be selfish so I just have to suck it up and deal with it somehow.
Stress is getting to me, and life just doesn't seem to be wanting me to find something of immense value to try to sort my life out in getting into this university I want to be in.
If I do get in though, what will I do? Where will I live? It's such a big chance but it's so far away.
What if I don't like it there? What if it's not what I'm looking for?
What if nothing is what I'm looking for?
What if I never get the job I want? What if I'm stuck doing a lame job that I hate for the rest of my life and never amount to anything because I couldn't get my ass n gear when I had the chance?
What if I let everyone down?
What if I lose you?
What if I never get you back?
I don't know what I'm doing and that scares me to death.
Yet no one can save me, except me.
Featuring my alt. Sona, Clyde
My life has been extraordinarily hectic lately and a few things are huge changes that I'm having a very hard time dealing with.
I don't feel like anyone really understands how much it's affecting me, but if they did know then I'd be selfish so I just have to suck it up and deal with it somehow.
Stress is getting to me, and life just doesn't seem to be wanting me to find something of immense value to try to sort my life out in getting into this university I want to be in.
If I do get in though, what will I do? Where will I live? It's such a big chance but it's so far away.
What if I don't like it there? What if it's not what I'm looking for?
What if nothing is what I'm looking for?
What if I never get the job I want? What if I'm stuck doing a lame job that I hate for the rest of my life and never amount to anything because I couldn't get my ass n gear when I had the chance?
What if I let everyone down?
What if I lose you?
What if I never get you back?
I don't know what I'm doing and that scares me to death.
Yet no one can save me, except me.
Featuring my alt. Sona, Clyde
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
Species Rabbit / Hare
Size 1090 x 1280px
File Size 261.9 kB
*walks by gives you a hug and starts trudging with you for a bit, barely speaking above the rain
Don't feel guilty. You aren't being selfish. There is nothing wrong with being beat down by circumstances... even if other people have found a way through them. They aren't you. They haven't lived your life. They are not dealing with your past and aren't looking at your future. They have their own reasons for moving forward as I am sure you do. What is easy for others may be a trial of terror for you.
*stops walking*
It's not what we feel to be right... its what we KNOW to be right. We are not perfect... but... we also know what we should do. Well... most of the time.
I wish I could tell you not to be afraid... but i don't know the extent of your fear. I wish I could tell you not to worry... but I don't know what burdens your mind. Just as you do not know of my burden and fear.
We have the answers... we usually do. It's just up to us to pick the one the feels right... or the one that is right.
*walks in a different direction and disappears into the rain*
Don't feel guilty. You aren't being selfish. There is nothing wrong with being beat down by circumstances... even if other people have found a way through them. They aren't you. They haven't lived your life. They are not dealing with your past and aren't looking at your future. They have their own reasons for moving forward as I am sure you do. What is easy for others may be a trial of terror for you.
*stops walking*
It's not what we feel to be right... its what we KNOW to be right. We are not perfect... but... we also know what we should do. Well... most of the time.
I wish I could tell you not to be afraid... but i don't know the extent of your fear. I wish I could tell you not to worry... but I don't know what burdens your mind. Just as you do not know of my burden and fear.
We have the answers... we usually do. It's just up to us to pick the one the feels right... or the one that is right.
*walks in a different direction and disappears into the rain*
*hugs*
It's okay, the only thing you can do is try your best and tackle the changes when they come. No one knows what they're doing most of the time. We're all great pretenders, doing our best. What we know and what we want can sometimes be exclusive for the knowledge of how to get there.
I'm sure you can do it! c:
It's okay, the only thing you can do is try your best and tackle the changes when they come. No one knows what they're doing most of the time. We're all great pretenders, doing our best. What we know and what we want can sometimes be exclusive for the knowledge of how to get there.
I'm sure you can do it! c:
You definitely aren't alone in this. Many people think they are, but they're not. This is a hectic time in most people's lives, and the fear of fucking up and ruining your life is prominent in most people as well. I dunno how old you are, but you sound like a young adult (like me), and that means you have time and leeway to make mistakes, no matter how much it may seem like you don't. I went halfway across the country and messed up the second I turned 18, but I'm still alive and okay. It's okay to make mistakes now and learn from them.
Sometimes you have to roll the dice to win the game. If you lose, you have to pick yourself up and play again.
Sometimes you have to roll the dice to win the game. If you lose, you have to pick yourself up and play again.
*hugs* you're right, I can't understand what you're going through...but even if you do feel selfish I'm still here for you, as are others, even if we can only offer words of encouragement and comfort, so chin up dear. It'll take time, yes, But I'm sure you will find what you're looking for at your own true pace, and be happy once more ^.^ <3 for now, we'll all be here as we can be.
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