Kinda sorta vent art, maybe?

Just reflecting how I've been feeling lately.. It's like, none of the stuff that I used to love holds my attention for very long, and the things I used to enjoy now feel like a chore. I feel like I never want to draw, and then when I do draw it just feels so half-assed, and even if I like it once it's done I'll go back and look at it an hour later and hate it..

Maybe it's because I lost my grandfather so recently.. I didn't cry that much and I thought I was over it but it seems like ever since his funeral I've been in a slump and I don't know how to get out of it. Very few things actually make me happy, like playing the Dragon Age games cheers me up some, but even then while I'm playing it I also feel guilty because I can't stop thinking about the things I should be doing.

I've got a couple commissions now that are months overdue, and it's not fair to my customers to have to wait this long, but it feels like I can't even muster enough energy to finish a picture that should only take me an afternoon to do..

It's pretty shit, and whatever this crap feeling is I hope it goes away soon, or at least clears up enough so I can focus on finishing up everything I owe people..

If I owe you something and you're reading this right now, I'm sorry..