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Yeah, I get it,
You're an outcast.
Always under attack,
Always coming in last,
Bringing up the past.
No one owes you anything.
I'm stressed over life stuff. I feel like I do everything I can for people and none of it is ever recognized- I never get any gratitude for the multitude of things I do until the moment when I slack off and don't do them, then suddenly everyone has a bone to pick with me. I'm in school, I work on commissions, I now live with my SO and his 6 year old full time. He works 12 hour shifts and if I'm not at school I'm here, cleaning, making sure everyone has clean clothes in their dresser when they wake up, clean towels when they step out of the shower, food ready when they're hungry. I get Noah ready for school each day and get him through his homework and evening routine each night. It's just a given. I'm the one who runs outside to pry a mauled chicken from someone else's dog's mouth, give the animals water when everyone else is ignoring their empty bowls and bottles, put away the leftovers before they go rancid.
But that's not even what I'm so mad about, tbh! There are a multitude of people who talk about me, vaguepost about me, express their dissatisfaction with me to their heart's content- but I can't do the same. I feel like I'm trying to go about my business while multiple people blatantly play a game of throwing knives at my back. I'm sick of being passive-aggressively taunted and insulted, pulled into people's bullshit. My boyfriend's ex is actively trying to gain control over our life, spouting lies about me, about us, his family, mine. She can blow up his phone even after told to leave us alone, call me a cunt and an asshole and act like I'm stealing her family all day long, but I'm not allowed to retaliate and point out that she hasn't tried at all to see him in a supervised setting, not allowed to point out that the reason she can't take him to her house is because she refuses a drug test, while she posts all over facebook about how much of a homewrecker I am. I'm tired of being the better woman. I want to be the low-down bitch for once, I want to go back to high school when you could squash a problem like this for good using only your bare hands and not be charged with assault.
I have "friends" who disappear when shit is going okay, or worse, who disappear when some worthless fuck pops back into their life after I was there listening to them badmouth that person until they decided to magically not hate them anymore. Sometimes, it feels like everyone in my life seems to view me as a disposable receptacle for their complaints and sadness, but when I complain? I get condescending 'advice' and judgment. There's a fast growing list of people I don't even bitch to anymore, because I know they'll only make it worse. Especially when every time you vent to them, they file it away so that the next time you argue, they can use it against you. What kind of a "friend" is that?Okay so, I don't normally do vent art because I don't have time. It almost never makes it past a sketch in the corner of my notes in class. Even this is sketchy and messy. I don't have the time or energy to put a ton of detail into some 'feel sorry for me' art, but drama with everyone around me has been coming to a head lately, so for the past few weeks I've been working on this a little here and there, whenever I'm angry. Yes this is about people, no its not about commissioners, no I don't want to talk about it, yes I am fine.
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Sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time, especially considering everything you do during a day *offers hugs* As for people who talk about you, stab you in the back or criticise you/have a go at you for no reason, just forget about them. They're not worth your time and effort.
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