This is so true it's sad. Nobody should ever have to feel this way. My ex use to fight it all the time, her dad walked out when she was 5 years old and she's always felt like she was the reason why. I always tried really hard to make her feel better but when it wasn't working, I felt like I was half dead inside and voices in my head kept telling me to give up or that she'd never stop feeling that way. I kept pushing her to be happy anyway I could, she started cutting in 8th grade and stopped after 3 months of me taking any sharp objects from her. The whole time of knowing her I was fighting my own problems and depression.

I'm sorry to hear this. It really is something terrible. I haven't eaten anything all day and my depression has just been going steady downhill since my step dad passed away. I've taken a knife to myself a few times even when you want to be happy and know its not a good thing to do. Its just not easy. If you know anybody that gets to that dark place don't give up on them. They need that strong backbone and you're a good person to have been there for her.

Go eat something and don't tell me you can't. Even if it's something small you need to eat. Don't cut, don't be like her, I don't even know where she is now or if she's even started cutting again. You are too sweet to be doing that cutting stuff, please stop before the knife takes over your thinking. Please, don't let the voices hurt you, they are liars.

~Thankyou for that comment, I feel like its the most anyone has cared these past few weeks. . I'm going to try and eat something and get some more rest until I feel a little better. I don't plan anymore harm to myself but the worse thing is it gets uncontrollable at times and the voices can be the worse.

They are there to make you feel trapped, don't let them trap you. Please keep fighting.

Will keep trying.

*hugs*

*returns hug*