Ok, here's something completely new from me! Emo Art! yay Sarcasm!

if you're tired of listening to my emo drama, go. now.
save yourself.

anyways, minus the sarcasm and the warning, this one does have some significance. I'm tired of people telling me how much they care about me, and yet never try to care about me. Those who say how much they care about me when they read a journal or see what I've drawn, and still don't try to contact me or even if they do initiate a conversation, one way of showing care is to continue that conversation without flaking or dropping it because you feel you've done your one good deed of the day by just saying Hi.

One way to show someone you really care, is to actually make it a priority to have a conversation with them. even if you don't know what to say or don't have anything important to say, not saying anything at all can give them the feeling that you don't even try. I can understand taking time to think, but if you don't talk at all, after hours of waiting.. it can hurt more then anything. Getting someone's hopes up when you say Hi just to not say anything afterward, claiming you care so much, that you worry so much for the person who is depressed, yet you go on without even trying to make them feel happy.

And others wonder why I'm cynical at times, or don't trust people, or why I am so pessimistic on life. I use to be very optimistic, give people chances, long ago, but I know the truth on how people think. I know what people actually care about. They can continue to say they care about one thing, but with out putting any effort into that thing, they just say it for the words themselves. they don't even bother in backing those words up with action. I know sometimes i don't know what to say, but if someone is upset, i try my best, even if I don't truly know them! I draw a picture, or try to cheer them up, or talk to them about their problems. I keep trying. but everyone gives up after the first initiation of a Hi! everyone is too busy with their damn lives they don't really care about those they pretend to care about.

This isn't for me only. This is for everyone who's been depressed, or sad, and all their friends just walk around like nothing, saying "Oh, I'm sorry. you know I care" then just run off to be happy else where. I know it seems selfish that way, when you want someone to stop in their busy unfulfilling to take a few minutes to try and help you settle down. And I know how much people avoid being depressed, being dragged down with the bunch by pretending to be happy, pretending to put effort into a cause they don't really care for, or want to do anything for. I believe this is another point where America has failed horribly. Everyone here is too lazy to put any effort into anything, that includes the most basic of function humans take so much pride in, conversation and dialog between two or more people who claim to have love of friendship between them. yet not enough love, apparently, to take a few minutes out of their busy lives to show actual care. And schools, parents and other people wonder why suicide rates are high, why drug usage is high amongst teens. There is no escape, there is no comfort from others. Everyone's too lazy or just don't really care enough to put any effort into anything.

So not just for me, for everyone who is depressed, emo, or have any real problems they feel alone and can't deal with, go to them and talk to them. show them that you care with effort, rather then shallow words with no meaning behind them. Don't claim to love someone without even trying to put effort in holding that love up. Let your friends know how much you actaully care. Go out, and do something for them.

End of Rant/Emo.