it was a normal day, I was working on this pic, mom came to my room, we had some random chat, she liked the pic I was doing, she was always like "DID YOU DO THAT BACKGROUND???" "yes! :D", we kept talking and she even wanted me to buy a better desk since the one I use is pretty crappy, so I could draw more comfortable :3
A day later she had a stroke, and after a week she passed away. Life is super unfair.
I'm still kinda shocked about what happened, I get very sad whenever I think about it, and it's one of the reasons of why I cant finish this pic, it brings me back to that day and I just start crying and I can't work on it ._.

I do really miss her, she was an amazing person, I always felt lucky having my parents, we aren't rich or anything, but being able to be yourself with your parents, including your weird sexuality and dragon fetish is not something that you see every day... She was always very supportive with me and it always encouraged me to keep drawing.
My mom did tons of things for me and my sisters, I made her "suffer" a lot when I was in high school, I was like the worst guy in the class, the typical kid that doesnt give a shit about anything and has the lowest grades/qualifications of the entire class.. I ended high school like three years ago (instead of 7 years ago like everyone else), because I still had to pass a few classes... I hated high school so much because I lost all my friends the first years and because I didn't know what to do with my life, I didn't like any career, job or anything, life was pointless and I just wanted to die.
Right now I have dreams, goals, and in great part I must be thankful to my parents for it.
I always felt shitty because of how I was and I always wanted to reward my mom somehow. And it sucks so much that I'll never be able to do anything for her :/

I had a pretty shitty year, 2014 was the worst year of my life, not only because of my mom, almost EVERYTHING I did was negative, nothing worked, and there are things that I still got to settle...
Thankfully I do have the best internet friends ever and they made the year much less shitty of how it could be c:, and u know who u r.

Anyway, I know that we all have our lil/big problems, but I felt I had to write a bit of it, as you can see I don't really do this kind of stuff, but this time was different as I wanted to remind her, I can't believe it's already a year.

And now, about the pic, I was planning on using it for a YCH, the plan is the same. About what's going on? well I'm not sure yet, there were many ideas, I got to redo the characters, but overall, here is my dragon and his clan buddies, there are some travelers, maybe trying to have some kind of deal to pass? who knows, it still can be anything.
I do like the background, I think it was the first time I could make a decent background with depth, which was one of the things I most failed doing... I gotta redo/fix/improve many things in it yet, but I still love the background, it's one of my favorites c:
I guess I'll work on it again, hopefully soon