Sleep escapes me.

I have become dependant on something beside me
I have become dependant on her beside me
At this moment, I feel lost
Abandoned.

I feel tired
But no matter how tightly I close my eyes
How deeply I breathe
The crushing silence is a thousand atmospheres of loneliness
Oh god, let me sleep
I plead to the darkness
But it says nothing
There is no reply from the infinity of my room
There is only darkness
There is only the silence.

I find solace in the orange glow of the streetlight
Pouring through the gap in my curtains
A sliver of safety from the darkness that fills the rest of my room.

I hold my breath
In the hopes that I’ll hear her breathing
But I don’t
And when I breathe out
I am still alone
And it is still dark
And sleep still escapes me.

Sleep still escapes me.