a lot of things have been piling up and even the simplest word really bothers me
i can't do anything about it and i don't know how to deal with it
i really hate myself

i couldn't even draw what i wanted because i am just not good at anything
i'm so discouraged all the time and i wish i could get over it but i can't
and it's made me feel even worse

i almost wish i could go to sleep and never wake up