i feel useless and pathetic
i am stressed and angry
i am fearful and hurt
i am fading away
back into the darkness that once consumed me
back to the terror and the loneliness
away from all who i love and need
i shy away from kind words and hugs
help me
keep me safe
keep my head above the water
don't let me drown
don't' let it take me away again


vent
vent
vent

i am a horrible person
i just don't know anymore