WARNING FEELS AT MIDNDGHT THERE WILL BE TYPOS AND SPELLING ERRORS AN SHIT BUT THESE ARE MY FEELS SO DEEL! as usual per visit today i was asked why i dont share my sisters Christian belifs. (along with mutch mor painful bs) but my first thoght was psudo my fur bro how he lives through hell and just as soon as he thoght he was monerartly stabe enough to get by he lost his job and it wasnt even his fault he had wanted to save up for a visit and had to miss cons and most importantly get out of a shit situation i watch him bearly sleep or eat helplessly struggleing to find meaning in this shit as i fight my own family with a druggy sister devorceing parents a job where im lucky to get 4 hours aweek nd loosing the home i was born in and the creeping terror in that the one person who even cares is on the otherside of the contenentand yet it persists my sister and mom go to church and tellme its all gods plan and i want to scream TO WHAT!!! a creature who either laughfs at our pain or dosent exist because if "He" is all powerful as she says he is he can only be a sidistic bastard because my suffering isnt uncommon not by a long shot so what do you think plan ?has god left us or are we a cosmic joke i dont know so maybe this vast internet you can give me some guidence