this is not my art, but it features my character in it.

I look at this pic often, it really reminds me of the better days in my existence. At the same time I am guilt-written about what has happened since. This comes as a sort of apology letter I should had made long ago.

The two in the pic with me, I've done regrettable things to, we were mates at one time, but a chain of events blasted it all apart. Not gonna go into details about that situation, but I've stopped talking to Shiin because I think my presence in his life is a blight on him, he has it hard enough as it is, I don't mind being his friend, but I believe I am bad luck. I always beat myself into the ground, saying I am shit, not worth a damn, that I should die.

As for Retsu, I tore his heart in two, stomped on it and didn't let up till he finally had enough of me, I guess it was out of anger because it felt like he was happier without me around, even as a friend cause we didn't really talk very much. I pretty much blames him because we wanted an open relationship and I did not. I thought he'd ditch me, so I played ball.

Two people I loved and who made me happy and that is how I treat them, I was a moron. I've had a long time to reflect on all of it, I threw all the sadness attacked with these memories away because I'm sick of thinking about how the cali thing made me feel and letting fear control my life and in turn, hurt you in the process. None of those things should had ever happened and I am sorry letting any of it happen. The fear of being dumped for someone else was so great that I could trust no one. I left that line of thinking behind, because it does nothing for anyone, it also keeps me from truly living. I can't keep myself enclosed in a bubble of lies anymore, it only hurts people who are important to me, like you guys, my friends, my family, everyone. Sorry for being a great big douche.

The owners of these characters know who they are, so I won't put a copyright.

the art is by  fenrirwolfen