Zaldy,



I know I wasn't the best father. Let's get that out of the way. I know I was a bully. I was always right and I always knew what was best for you and that was the bottom line.



I'm sorry.



There were times when I pushed too hard, made crude jokes without regard for your feelings, and expected without argument for you to be a male just like me. In my last hours, I can only say I am glad you are not a male like me.



You are sensitive, my Zaldy. There were many times when I called you weak for it, soft, a crybaby. You stayed true to yourself and did not allow my words to change who you are. I can only admire my boy for that.



You are a good boy. You are my boy and I love you. That will always be true. No matter how we fight, no matter how our differences seem to come between us, it will remain true.



Lynny tells me you are back with that boy now. That Kel. I hope you make it decent and marry him and his wife proper - if such a situation could be called decent and proper. Lynny has told me it is custom over in that sun village of yours. And Eloein held the sun village in high regard, so I can't imagine why you shouldn't follow their customs and marry both Kel and Aliona.



Right now our great ancestor Imani is frowning - marry that boy and his wife. Make a legal family out of yourselves. Because if you're going to be a tail chaser, at least do it right. If you're gonna fuck guys, Zaldon, don't be half-assed. I didn't raise sons who ignore custom!



Also, don't let that Julyan of yours get away. Lynny came home with some of his baking. I didn't know an orgasm could be baked. Turns out it can! Keep him in your life. Fill your life with love and laughter, and knowing that you haven't wound up like me, I can die happy.



I love you, Zaldy. There. I've said it twice. Happy? You and your damn brother always complained that I wasn't mushy enough. So here I am, pouring my heart out.



Take care of yourself and know that Daddy loves you. Don't hurt anymore because of me. I have gone on. I have rejoined with nature. I'm in the trees and the earth, the wind and the flowers.



I'm with you. Always.



Bayne


character Zaldon belongs to Tesslyn

art done by  streambgn