Sorry while i hang out with the dust for a while. Been feeling really emotionally down lately.

I know a lot of it has to do with loneliness.
I have plenty of friends that would be over in a heart beat but it's just the same as what i need.
I miss being around someone with some one that looks for me in the crowd kinda deal.
It's ok most days then something happens or i see a couple and it's just like a shock down to my toes about what i miss.


I miss her a lot of days. She still crosses my mind. Still can't seem to pick myself up off my emotional floor after years now.
Feeling stuck and not knowing how to move forward. or at least how to unhook my heart stings to feel free to be able to cast them out again.
though some where in the back of my mind i think i'm hording and hiding them because i'm scared to death of actually finding some one again.