Finding it hard to believe. You're in heaven...
Sammy you were my first real friend, my first girlfriend, my first roommate and now my first real loss.
Love is all that I need and I found it there in your heart.
Even with everything that I've gone through, you were always there for me.
I always pictured my life with you in it...
And I want to say that I can't live in a world without you but I know you will be here...
It just won't be the SAMe...
Aside from when I slept last night I don't think I have stopped crying. You are the reason I have most of the friends that I do now. You are the the reason I met the love of my life. You helped me when I screwed that up and kept me happy. You were supposed to be the godmother to my kids. Our kids were supposed to go to camp together. You were supposed to outlive me and make stupid jokes at my funeral to make everyone else happy. I keep hoping that I will just wake up any minute now... Sam I love you and my life will never be the same without you. I will see you again one day, hold me a seat at the table.

Follow the sun light down
Cry clear and loud
Heaven won't help us now
But it's better this way
Warm light wash me away

So I'll wait for you
As I keep your faith alive
And I'll pray for you
As we cross the great divide
And I'll break for you
As I open up the sky
And I'll stay for you
As we cross the great divide