
Ever have someone you miss but cannot talk to anymore?
This is a poem about someone [another furry] I was super-close with back when I used to be a not-so-good person, years ago. I'm proud of becoming a much better individual. Though funny how after years, we still can miss certain people.
This poem was written in a format as if I'd emailed them and then replied back and forth to one another. Read it to a coworker, and it made him cry-he said it 'touched him'-Maybe it's good? I'm not sure.
Enjoy.
Hey, it’s me,
Just wanted to write you an apology,
The memories are sick to me,
It’s like an appendectomy,
Something went wrong,
Now I write this song
Of sorrow and regret
With my cheeks so wet.
I’ll await your reply
As I go dry my eyes.
Hello, old friend,
Years have past since it came to an end,
Contact was not meant to extend,
I’m uncomfortable after you made my trust bend,
I have become used to independence,
Your messages seem so relentless
Even after years,
There are no need for tears.
Carry on alone just I have,
You’ll learn to tread this path.
An old friend is all I am to you?
This term relating to me is askew,
Remember when I said I loved you?
Replacing “partner” for “friend” is new,
I didn’t anticipate time would have this as an accomplishment,
Your current stance about me has left me without a comment
Because it doesn’t feel right,
These tears I still fight,
Why can’t you see my heart yearns for you,
The fire red now turns to blue.
My love was cut loose
As you continued self-abuse
To our relationship it was a noose,
Perhaps maybe more like toxic juice.
You let me go and face plant in the dirt,
Now I’ll show you what it’s like to hurt
When someone lets go of your hand
As you’re the one helping them to stand,
Your support gives way,
And there’s nothing left to say.
I never meant to do this to you,
I only wanted the best; can’t say that’s not true,
None of this should be new,
I honestly wanted to stick like glue,
I was battling inner demons
Throughout my sinner seasons
Where I changed into a different individual,
Even though my love remained residual,
After all this time passed, I thought it’d mean more,
Though I guess along with emotions faded, time also shuts doors.
It felt like you had planned it,
The pain and suffering- everything god dammit,
After so much, I could no longer stand it,
I felt like every night I was reprimanded,
Inside I knew I loved you with all my heart,
Even though I felt like you tore me apart
Into pieces of glass that cut like a knife,
Though I guess that’s life,
I told you I had nothing else to say,
So why don’t you carry on with your day?
How could I plan drinking,
It happened randomly from too much thinking,
Smoking came from my confidence shrinking,
I’d lie awake late into the night, eyes barely blinking,
I had love inside but didn’t know how to display it,
It was even more difficult to find affectionate ways to say it,
As I stumbled around my room like a fool,
During those times I was a useless tool,
Though now I’m clean and demons defeated
With no result because fruits from my goal have been depleted.
You hurt me once and it won’t happen again,
Forever from this point you’ll remain a friend,
This sentiment will be the last I’ll send,
Because after this, communication will end.
I loved you to the moon and back,
Even if it meant enduring a heart attack
And a stab in the back,
I’d still love you as a matter of fact,
I’d have done whatever it took to keep “us” intact,
But I lacked the feeling of security,
You took it all away from me,
I never felt solidarity,
Why couldn’t you be fair to me,
And just stop scaring me,
I was loyal as a dog that you kicked,
And never once did you see that as being sick,
Or even as being a dick,
And that just one of your tricks
To push me away for good,
Even though you never thought you would,
I gave empty promises just so you’d stop yelling through slurs,
A different person each day, there was no telling for sure;
All those nights you Skyped me while drunk,
I wish you could’ve seen my heart as it sunk,
I could sit here and call you names as you did to me,
Though even that could not change this misery,
I would cry and hide it with a smile
While you killed me inside all the while,
Nothing you can do will get us back to better times,
I hope you take this as a sign
To end this while you’re ahead,
Because our shared love is dead.
I never hurt more than I did throughout those days,
Even though you were a thousand miles away,
For so many reasons, I’ve nothing left to say,
Regret is something you’ll live with everyday,
See it as a life lesson from this situation you take away,
This is the last message I’ll write,
I love you, and I wish you goodnight.
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I cannot find words as wonderfully spun as yours to compliment you on this piece but it is absolutely glorious
very nice use of words, your feeling is really well explained and heartfelt /made me tear up a little to be honest/
You should continue writing! maybe use this in a future song?
very nice use of words, your feeling is really well explained and heartfelt /made me tear up a little to be honest/
You should continue writing! maybe use this in a future song?
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