This is a continuation...

All my life I was a nobody...nobody wanted to be around me...they thought...that I was some side show...someone that doesn't deserve any friends...and when I do manage when I make friends...they use me....and that...was really a blow to the heart...they don't really realize it because of how cold they are...all my life...I was so silent...expecting something else to happen...I mean...I'm human too...but they treat me like I was some Alien...I never did understand why they didn't like me...it has gotten worse in middle school...I first stepped into the junior high school...knowing that there won't be a change...again alone...no one never bothered to communicate with me...why?..that questioned was never answered sadly as the torture kept going on...I walked to class thinking what a cold cold world this is I tell you..heh...this was only the beginning...they started to look at me..plotting to exact pain on me....and sharing laughs of how the pain will get to me knowing that my life was already horrible to begin with but I kept a fake smile...knowing that the pain inside me will never show...that until it happened....I just snapped and walked out of the classroom...they never knew me...was happens at home...as my mom's husband makes it worse...as you see...what I'm trying to tell you...those people...will never know who I truly am...will never know what I been through and what I could be capable of...they just still do it and share laughs...I was always the outcast I tell you...All my life I have never trusted a soul..never liked anyone since It came to my head that everyone is after me..my mood has darkened over the years knowing that every one is just assholes..each and every person that I meet each and every person that I go near....it's just the same to me...just a heartless person...and here I am today...still suffering..with a fake smile on my face...and that's the end...so...now you know when you say I will always be there for you or better yet I will never leave your side...How can I trust it? Most of the people I have met says that all the time and what do they do? they ditch me...so...if you can talk it you better walk it.

fucking assholes...