It finally hit me why you've been on my mind so much lately. In just a few days it will be two and a half years. I don't pay attention to days anymore. Haven't been able to since you were lost. I don't want to keep waking up from dreams of you, almost swearing I can feel you there beside me, to realize that another day has passed. Please just keep me there with you in my dreams.


First time in almost two years I've been able to draw him. Felt sick the whole time and had to stop frequently to wipe my eyes. And now everything is hitting me full force. It doesn't get easier. Everyone said it would but it's not. It's just getting harder. Vodka is probably going to be my best friend for a little bit until this all passes.