Something I wrote and thought of after having a weird Nightmare like dream. It's not so much a story but kind of like a monologue but enjoy!


Everyone has a light and dark side, but not everyone can control that darkness. Some of us give in to the dark and allow it to feed and grow. Some people learn to confront that darkness and are able to harness the raw potential, others however when the darkness becomes too much to handle and it overwhelms the person which can result in negative side effects. It’s not an easy task to overcome the darkness, my own darkness personified is a massive dire wolf, I’ve come to terms and accepted at least a portion of my rage which is represented by flames of darkness within myself. These flames are also accompanied by a white hot flame but not of rage; rather this is a neutralizing and calm flame. Learning to combine the two within myself is why within my flames are purple. The purple flames represent something stronger deep within the core of my body but this is something I have yet to even tap into.

Now that I am older I have gotten a better handle on my rage and have learned to control it mostly, I guess this is where my alter ego Kuro comes into play. Kuro is the personification of my reflection in a sense, a tall black werewolf with purple eyes and wings that are black and white allowing flight; he has a toned muscular body type. He is what I hold back, my inner thoughts rage and of course my potential. Only recently within the year I was able to see my own inner reflection thanks to my beloved partner. This isn’t something that can be easily done and does take some practice before you can get the hang of it! There are times when either in the heat of passion or rage that my inner reflection slips out this causes my eyes to go from a lighter blue to more of a dark sky blue almost like you were staring into the sky at dusk. Though sometimes after I have calmed down this affect still lingers.

There has been numerous times where I would love for my reflections to switch allowing Kuro to take control and just rip apart verbally and mentally those that have wronged me or just severely irritated me to where my rage does slip out but not to an extent where I would act on it. Even now I have times where when I am at work or having to deal with people who I would love to rip a new one and scare them to where it could quite possibly cause mental trauma. But this is the dire wolf inside that wants to let loose and run wild and cause a little chaos! If I were to release my restraints on this form, it would be like releasing a hurricane in a bottle. I have yet to be able to control this rage and energy which is why it is kept restrained.

One thing for sure though is that the way my life is going right now I’ve learned to harness my anger into fuel for my creativity to come up with various short stories every once in a while. My partner now fiancée Pam is the greatest person to of come into my life. Without her I wouldn’t have learned to harness my anger the way I have now, let alone I would probably be in quite the bad spot if things hadn’t happened the way they did. I love her so much it’s difficult to describe other than when I am with her it’s like time freezes around us and we are in our own world. She is the light to my darkness, and is the world to me. I would do anything to keep her safe even if it meant releasing all restraints on my dire form. I would gamble everything I have on the line for her safety, even at the cost of my sanity.