Like I said in the journal, I really hate writing stuff, and after all my school years
trying to figure out why I am so "weird", I finally got the result of having ADD.

(actually I haven't got the paper on it yet so can't 100% say I do. Though after all tests do
everything point at it.)

What is ADD?
Actually ... I can't really find a good site about it .. because of the ADD. ( <--- "..point at it" )
- I'm laughing my jaw of at the same time as I hit my head sad in the desk.

So, I wanted just to thank all watchers that's still watching me.

It might take some more time for me to go back to normal with the drawing.
Even though I hopefully will get help with my problems do i expect the worst;
I have been searching for help for so many years, why would now be any different?

I don't even find any joy to draw for the moment. The only word echoing in my head is "failure".
My family is stressing me up and fighting with me all the time, calling me lazy and weak.
To just get this paper in my hand will hopefully make my family understand why I'm not "normal".

I'm hiding in games, making myself forget about everything around me until then, because of a
suicide wish that just grows bigger if i don't.


Take care / Nyanpya