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To those who may read this,

My year so far has been a roller coaster ride with more downs than
ups. I may put on a face and seem happy, but that is what I have tried
to condition myself to do. My heart knows and shows otherwise.
The end of the year is coming close, but before it is Christmas. For two
years now, my true Christmas wish has been for my beloved to come visit
me. So far, two Christmases have past, and yet I have not received
what I've wished for. I have a bit to go before I can judge the third,
but I guess this allows me to reflect on why it may or may not.
I'm definitely not one of the best people to consider for a friend or even
as something greater. Yet, I continue trying in both cases. To know if
I'm doing well enough, I'd have to reflect on my past in both
situations. That may prove hard, as my memory slips very easily and I
lose precious moments without even realizing until it is too late.
What I'm trying to get at, though, is maybe I'm far more blessed
than I should be. Or maybe there is some weird effect going on
and I actualy work hard enough to be blessed with what I aleady
have. Should I really ask for more?
I really just felt like I should just give my thanks to friends
that like me, family that tolerates me, and that my beloved, who
probably has my heart in a jar next to his bed. My insecurities and
bouts of depression hit me with all three groups that I am probably
quite untolerable and just a downright nuisance.

So, to all of you reading this, I say this:
Enjoy your relation with others but keep one Christmas Wish.

~

I know, my grammar really slipped during writing this... Ugh, I noticed so many problems when re-typing this up for the comments, in case people couldn't understand half the s' I wrote. :P This was during work, so obviously I was interrupted every few minutes with a customer, but that is no excuse for letting certain words and sentences smudge the entire letter.

~ KT