Beautiful as always!

Thank you so much lovely lady! <3

Yessss. Also I have Huskie doing my character in Mechanical Animals-era Marilyn Manson cosplay, shit is gonna be so cash. I'm so glad people still listen to that album

Hell yeah! I like to stick to my older music. I listen to some newer stuff, but certain artists I like their old stuff better. And sometimes And I'm just stuck in the past. I can't wait to see the picture Mayra makes for you!!

Most music stopped being good in 2003, imho. After the shitshow of the 80's, MM and everybody else from the 90's fuckin killed it. So many good, new bands.

Oh my god, Jolyn....This seriously took my breath away. ;~; I am so moved by this in so many ways I'm not even sure I can word it. What a wonderful surprise. I cannot get over just how amazingly PERFECT you drew Mesquite!! ;0; I mean, the way you drew her body type I am just flabbergasted and amazed!! I cannot draw sickly skinny bodies to save my life, but you not only managed to do it exquisitely here, but you were able to still give her a feminine shape. Absolutely stunning!! And I for seriously cannot even contain myself over her outfit!! I fucking wish I could wear that kind of stuff so hard, but she can and she does. X3 You got her personal style down PAT. And the song you picked?!! It's like it was fucking written about her!! I'd never heard this song before, but I just listened to it and I love it. This is definitely her new theme song no question. And her hair and her vacant expression, her eyes, her tracks and all the little ribbons tied to her arms, her amazing jewelry like that adorable little bracelet/ring on her hand, the lining of her pockets poking out from the bottoms of her shorts, the suspended garters on her thighs holding up the stockings, the lacey shirt and the spikes, the boots and the way you lined them with the pink gel pen, all the little details that make your art so amazing -- Gahd just everything about this is incredible and so fucking beautiful I can't stand it!! ;0; And most importantly to me, the fact that you put her with Silverwing just moves me somewhere deep down. I know you understand the feelings that made Mesquite a necessary character in my life because you feel them too. As much as it pains me to know you're struggling, the fact that you can use my character to express them makes my heart swell. And it's the same relationship I have to Dimitri. And the fact that we share in the expressive vessels through which we convey our suffering makes me feel bonded to you in a way that I don't with anyone else in the world. I hate that you are having a hard time, but I am so glad that you can express yourself in your art again. I am so humbled to be a part of your process of dealing with those feelings. And I hope you know that being here for you has given me so much more than you know. It gives me a sense of responsibility and purpose to help you in any small way that I can. And even just the knowledge that you will likewise always be there for me is a constant support and motivating comfort for me to keep going, even at my worst. You have given me so much and I will never live long enough to repay you adequately for everything you have done and continue to do for me, Jolyn. I love you so much. Please do not hesitate to come to me when things are difficult. You are never a burden to me, even when we are both struggling. You know as well as I do that we can only ever lift each other up. I am always here for you, not because I feel like I owe it to you, but because I want to be. Because you give me a reason to keep going and keep trying my best to be the best possible version of myself that I can be. Thank you so much for this, sweetheart. I am so beyond in love with everything about this piece I can't even explain it. This means so much more to me than you could ever know. Thank you. I love you so much, my Jolyns. You are the love of my life, ok? <333

You just notice EVERY single little detail I put into my art Laura, and it makes my heart swell that you do. And it makes it swell 10 times more large for the personal impact this has on you. I knew you would understand what it meant by drawing SW with Mesquite, the symbolism this would express. I know that not everyone can quite grasp this, in fact, no one else really can... but I feel Mesquite is as much a personal character to you as Crow is, just in a different form - just like Dimitri is to me. And just like Dimitri would be to you, Mesquite is to me. She just came to me when I was listening to this song and already being sad and thinking about myself. It made me think of the dynamic, how Mesquite would kind of not give a shit, but SW would... BUT a the same time, Mesquite would feel some sadness along with SW. I feel like there's more to Mesquite than meets the eye (TRANSFORMERS ROBOTS IN DISGUISE) sorry couldn't help it. Because while she's a junkie and an empty mess, she's got feelings deep down in there - and I think a lot of them are filled with self hate.
I felt like I kind of combined two ideas of this song, with SW hurt, giving up, slitting her wrists open while obviously shooting up a little with Mesquite. Meanwhile Mesquite shot the fuck up and letting SW's blood get all over her like it's no big deal.

They do connect us, and just show how deep our bond goes. And I am glad that you can see that, and despite the pain I am feeling that it means so much and HELPS ME so much to express that pain through this piece of art that features one of your characters that does the same for you. I feel they together help define us. And as you said - you know I am always, ALWAYS here for you. There is never a moment I am not, no mater how sad I am. As you said, all we can do is lift each other up. Talk about stupid stuff and giggle. XD And Pffft me the love of your life? Totally the other way around!!! Laura you are really like, the most special bond I've ever had with another human being. The one person I can be totally open, honest, and puke up my brain vomit too; knowing the whole time you aren't going to judge me, but identify with me, and we can laugh about it and cry about it and move past it.

I know you get these feelings too. And sometimes we just have to let this shit out. I think this helped with these feelings anyway. And I will be honest, I do kinda like how this came out, Mesquite especially. I wish I could wear all that cool shit too! I am like omg happy you noticed the pockets poking out from underneath her short shorts! That was a tiny detail I added in thinking "eh nobody will even notice this but whatever" and then OF COURSE you notice!! XD I will say that Phee and Frick's art inspired me. A lot of times I forget to have that area that's open between the hips... know what I mean? I usually have characters with thicker legs where that doesn't happen.... though now I realize I kinda should have been and it adds so much depth to the character.... so I gave it a big go on Mesquite given her figure, and used a reference Phee gave me on drawing Gummibats and making a more androgynous figure. But I added just that little extra bit of curve to try to keep her girly and I'm glad it worked!! Omg I love you so much. I will mail this to you soon along with some other things. I got you something when I was at the beach a while back that I have to get to you. I LOVE YOU MY LOVE OF MY LIFE <333

Oh, and all of Mesquite's cute little ribbons that double as tourniquets for shooting up. :)