
hard times are coming for me, sad anniversaries soon... And for once, instead of keeping it inside, I felt like drawing a little something as a personnal exorcism. Letting it out, in short.
On November 1st 2002, my mother passed away after 5 years fighting against cancer. And even if I want to move on, my scumbag brain remembers. Traditionally, from mid october to mid november, I suffer big depressions. For now, I'm still good, I hope I'll be stronger this year.
Still, that time of the year reminds me hurtful memories. My dad crying, me saying farewell to my inconscious mom this evening, on her hospital bed... I also remember how they all showed support during the funeral, I remember that girl falling on me crying (She knew my mom quite well, she was like a sister to me). People she hadn't seen for twenty years came at the funeral, that was a proof to me that she was a good person. I still cry at the song my dad chose for the event:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EYyarcp5LtU
It's also a reminder that 2 years later, we stop celebrating christmas the way we did. No more big family gatherings, no more joyful nights I used to expect with excitement. One year before my mother, my grandmother had passed away, and she was the main link for my family. It didn't take long before the family was scattered.
Also, in November 2004, I moved to live with my father, my current stepmother and her two daughters. And I was the main target of all the reproaches she could throw. It borke my self confidence back then, and I still struggle to re build it. my teenage was really a time of my life I'd like to forget...
Ironically, today I work at the same hospital where my mom died. I like to think that I work as hard as I do because of her, because I want to help in any possible way the people who go through the same hard times. And I like to think that she would approve the man I become. Because despite my social anxieties and my shaking self confidence, I worked hard and achieved things I would have never thought I was able to do.
I'm respected at work. I have my own students in the martial art I practice. I have friends I care for, even if I'm not always good at showing it. And I know they care for me. Those who did efforts to really know me know that I'm a reliable and kind guy. I'm independant. And I think I can be proud of myself.
I still remember where I come from, and I don't think I'll ever forget. Gotta make peace with the past, because it made me the man I am today
On November 1st 2002, my mother passed away after 5 years fighting against cancer. And even if I want to move on, my scumbag brain remembers. Traditionally, from mid october to mid november, I suffer big depressions. For now, I'm still good, I hope I'll be stronger this year.
Still, that time of the year reminds me hurtful memories. My dad crying, me saying farewell to my inconscious mom this evening, on her hospital bed... I also remember how they all showed support during the funeral, I remember that girl falling on me crying (She knew my mom quite well, she was like a sister to me). People she hadn't seen for twenty years came at the funeral, that was a proof to me that she was a good person. I still cry at the song my dad chose for the event:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EYyarcp5LtU
It's also a reminder that 2 years later, we stop celebrating christmas the way we did. No more big family gatherings, no more joyful nights I used to expect with excitement. One year before my mother, my grandmother had passed away, and she was the main link for my family. It didn't take long before the family was scattered.
Also, in November 2004, I moved to live with my father, my current stepmother and her two daughters. And I was the main target of all the reproaches she could throw. It borke my self confidence back then, and I still struggle to re build it. my teenage was really a time of my life I'd like to forget...
Ironically, today I work at the same hospital where my mom died. I like to think that I work as hard as I do because of her, because I want to help in any possible way the people who go through the same hard times. And I like to think that she would approve the man I become. Because despite my social anxieties and my shaking self confidence, I worked hard and achieved things I would have never thought I was able to do.
I'm respected at work. I have my own students in the martial art I practice. I have friends I care for, even if I'm not always good at showing it. And I know they care for me. Those who did efforts to really know me know that I'm a reliable and kind guy. I'm independant. And I think I can be proud of myself.
I still remember where I come from, and I don't think I'll ever forget. Gotta make peace with the past, because it made me the man I am today
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Words cant explain how sad I feel for you, To go through all this at a young age
Best of luck making it through these tough times.
Whenever i'm having a bad day, I always listen to this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0TNW9ZHvuA
Best of luck making it through these tough times.
Whenever i'm having a bad day, I always listen to this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0TNW9ZHvuA
[en:]
Keep walking, keep walking and remembering those who are no longer, as do reminding them to walk by your side. For life is to live suffer and move on, the past can not be changed ... much it hurts ...
You have my deepest condolences.
[es:]
Sigue caminando, sigue caminando y recordando a quienes ya no estan, pues recordandolos haces que ellos caminen a tu lado. Pues la vida consiste en vivir sufrir y seguir adelante, el pasado no se puede cambiar... por mucho que duela...
Tienes mi mas profundo pésame.
Keep walking, keep walking and remembering those who are no longer, as do reminding them to walk by your side. For life is to live suffer and move on, the past can not be changed ... much it hurts ...
You have my deepest condolences.
[es:]
Sigue caminando, sigue caminando y recordando a quienes ya no estan, pues recordandolos haces que ellos caminen a tu lado. Pues la vida consiste en vivir sufrir y seguir adelante, el pasado no se puede cambiar... por mucho que duela...
Tienes mi mas profundo pésame.
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