... but we matter... we do things... we do so much when we have this empathic feeling... we share and want the best for every single one around us and at the end we forget about us u//u... but arent... arent we there?

I am no one to say I dont agree u.u... would be lying to myself... would be stabbing myself because deep inside my anger towards myself is big... I said I am not perfect... I am not a god I commit sin after sin and it wages over my back... but you... but I... but no one can deny the fsct that looking and helping another person is something that just fill us and keep us going forward...

We forget about ourselves and we believe more on the others... but I learned.. I.. I understood thanks to you that its just a part of us... its part of growing.. we bottle ourselves thinking that we worth no more nor less than the others, but we are actually worth just as much, we might think our acts are empty or meaningless at times.. but they impact and leave a makr on some one who even at the end leaves you or betrayed you HE NEEDED YOU... you did the best at that time and stepped up when NO ONE would or dare.. that alone shows the strengh of our hearts, the determination of our actions to create from this world and society a better place for every one and us.

We learned slowly from the path... was hurtfull... was painfull.. we bleed.... we died... but we reborn, and we are here... today.. the prove of our acts, the prove of our deeds.. many will bash us... many will stumbble against us... but its part of life we cant blame their ignorance or inmaturity, only god knows what terrible past they have had... but we will keep going.. we will keep fighting...

Dont feel you dont desserve happiness... that you dont desserve what you give.. because you desserve it just as much as any one you give it to.. and if you feel you cant stand, or that this weight shatters you, we will be there to pick your pieces, put them back tougether and help you walk even if we need to carry you T.T you mean so much... and you desserve the same you have given under the laws of Karma, common sence, and natural law...

.... I am sorry if I cant explain myself very well... but I hope... I... I can make sence of what I want to say... I felt like this so many times.. but we worth it... they make us know... our good deeds make us know T.T... I... I am wo sorry... I am so deeply sorry... I am so stupid many times you know TwT.... but I blind myself all time... but friends are always there TwT.... people you help are always there.... and the reminder of our deeds are always there... you dont desserve this crushing feeling... you are special.. your seeds have bloomed flowers... tomorrow might be another patch... who knows? But friends will be there.. always to give you a hand, always to remember you... you have a huge meaning in this life