Someone asked me an interesting question today, which made me think about a lot of things. I gave them quite a swift response, but it got me thinking about a few things that had happened in my past, and in my present, and I decided that I kinda wanted to talk about them, and a little bit about myself. I don't tend to talk about myself much, but I feel I can portray a pretty positive message through doing this, so here I go! ♥

So I've made a quite a few remixes now, and I have quite a few watchers, all of which I cannot express how grateful I am just to even be on your watch list. The fact that you had taken even just the smallest moment out of your day to listen to something I've created, and decided to watch me so that you could keep up with anything else I submit is just... Sort of mind blowing, to be honest.

I thought it would be pretty cool to make a post like this! I mean, if you're here solely for music and nothing more, feel free to just click back and forget you even read this far; I will still love you the same just for visiting ♥ But for anyone who is interested, I thought I would type a little about myself and give you all a picture that I took... Today.

There are many pictures I've taken that are (if I'm allowed to say so myself), really quite well taken; where my make-up is done IMMACULATELY and my hair has been freshly died and I have some sort of bright lipstick on and I'm kinda pushing my chest out or some shit... And yeah. Theyre pretty good pictures! But I felt this one was a bit more honest. Mainly because I've lazily put my makeup on and I'm wearing my glasses and some modest clothing. Although you can't really see my makeup... Thanks, sun -.-

Buuuut... Being someone who spends all her time sat behind a computer either writing songs or playing video games, this picture is a little more honest! :o Although actually that shirt is really open at the back, but hey, you cant all see that, so it's okay ;D

I'm 22 years of age, female, from the UK, and Im a human being. The latter is obvious, but this is furaffinity, so I thought I better clarify :o Sadly, in the species drop down list, I couldn't find 'human'. I thought that would have been quite witty to tag the submission as that, but whatever :P

I'm actually a transexual - although that doesn't really need to be said. I'm as much of a girl as any other, and if any transgender people are told otherwise, you can come straight to me and I will tear the offenders teeth out with a pair of pliers ;D

(Keyboard warrior moment just there♥ Reminds me of my Runescape days when you would beat someone in the wilderness and they would spout wild profanities and say ludicrous things like 'FITE ME IRL', whereas that was clearly impossible due to basic geography/physics) >.<

As I mentioned earlier, I spend a lot of time at my desk. I'm a pretty introverted person and like time to myself. I'm not great in social scenarios, I will be honest! Contradicting this, I do spend a lot of time playing online RPG's, where socializing is kind of essential. But I suppose everything is alright when you're sat behind a screen. You can say whatever you like without anyone really knowing the truth; like when you start sexting with someone and they're like... 'What are you wearing babe... ?' and you describe how youve just slipped into bed with your stockings on and a push-up bra that really exposes your cleavage... When really you're sat there wearing your dads jumper and a pair of socks.

But I play single player games too. I was brought up with video games, although Im not fond with where the industry went. I still spend my time playing a lot of retro games like Spyro the Dragon, or replaying the old Pokemon games. Those are where my best memories lay, after all :o

Apart from making music, I dont really have any other hobbies. I play the Yu-Gi-Oh! TCG on occasion but anyone who plays that can probably agree with me that 98% of the community is made up of assholes, so I don't really enjoy it unless I'm playing with some friends. I have a mild interest in other card games; Magic the Gathering has always been up in my list of things to play but I've just never gotten around to it. I dabbled with Cardfight: Vanguard!! (two exclamation marks... drives me insane...), but it sort of plays itself. Oh well :o

My favorite color is pink, because it doesnt really have any bad connotations. Everything it represents is quite nice, and theres not many bad things you can say about it. Unless its hot pink, cause that color makes my eyes burn D: My favorite food is pizza cause Im so original and uh... my favorite operating system is Mac OSX. I know right, such a hipster! Sadly it doesn't really do well for gaming, so I dont own a mac. I also cant really afford one...

Uh, so I've waffled a little bit. I've probably strayed a little from the point so I'm going to return there now...
The question I was asked was 'What do you want to do in life?'

Aaaand I had to think about it for a little. I asked the question back while I was thinking and they told me all about their dream job, what they wanted to do and where they wanted to work, etc, etc. Which was fine! Completely legit.

I told him the best job for me would probably be a musician. As a dream job... yeah, that'd be pretty cool. Writing/performing music... That would be great. Although I dont think that will ever happen; I did actually take music studies during school, and in the end I got a 'U'. For those unfamiliar with the UK grading, depending on how many marks your work throughout the year gets, you get a grade, from A to F, in most places. A being the best, F the worst. If your work doesnt even meet the parameters for an F, you get a U, which stands for 'Ungraded'. I was told that I was tone-deaf and I had made the wrong decision in picking music.

Theres a great message in there already; that if you want to do something, if you're REALLY passionate about something in life; Do it. I hate to sound like Shia LaBeouf, which his terrible motivational video where he just tells people to 'Just do it'. Yeah thats awful advice. But seriously, if you have that passion for something, ignore what everyone else says. Dont look at other peoples work and think 'Wow, I'll never be that good.' Look at it, and be inspired by it. Learn from it, and improve. Just keep at it. Even ignore your own thoughts. The little person in your head telling you that your work sucks. That you'll never reach the level you want to. Cast that inner-perfectionist aside and keep on trying. No one will laugh at you... And if someone does? Well it's a blessing, it just shows you that you dont need that person in your life.

So linking back to the original question, yeah, my ideal job might be to be a musician. But what I really want to do is help people. Help people who are suffering with the same issues I am, whether I have overcome them or not. Most importantly, I want to inspire. I hope that one day I can inspire people with my music, make people want to improve their own *whatever* when they listen to it, whether it be their own music, art, writing, dancing, whatever. I want to inspire people and give them the spirit to fight their demons and become who they want to be, to achieve the things they need to achieve and to measure their own success; not the success society tells them they need to achieve.

I don't really know what else I want to say here. But I just wanted to thank all of you. Those who are just reading this because it popped up on the front page, those who are reading this because it popped up in their submission feed, those who listen to my music, those regulars who always find the time to comment and tell me how well I am doing. I want to thank all of you.

Because you are all an inspiration to me.