It takes a lot of time to get over such a lose. Believe me... I've lost five and I am not with the BOY whom I know would of not taken care of the children.
Through out each lose, I grew up even more but my love for the boy I was with slowly depleted to nothing. realizing he was not what I needed in my life.

Today I realize that if he and I were still togehter, those babies would of been starving for food, I would of been on the streets and he would of been playing his little games.

All I'm saying is.... Sad to say...

Take your time. Do not rush for a child and enjoy what you have now. I ended that sickening relationship to grow up and become a better me. I know having those children would of been bad for me. I would of been alone taking care of them alone, by myself without ANY help what so ever.

Life has not stopped but realize it happened for a reason. You are most likely not ready but when it happens again... it will be a blessing. Just do not rush.

I lost her years ago. I know.
And I would have been able to care for her, it wouldn't have been easy but it never is. That's part of being a parent.
I've gone through all that a few times over.
It NEVER gets any easier, I still cry over her all the time. I would give anything to have her in my life right now.

Just know she is safe in your god's arms.
I know that won't help but just smile once in awhile.

Thank you.
I try so hard. I miss her so much.