I've felt like this, I know what you're going through.

All I can say is take your time, talk to just one close friend and share stories. Just take one step at a time, even if it takes a day or two just for that one step. Only do it when you're comfortable with it.

I always take a slow deep breathe of air and let it out extremely slow. Just be re-assured there are people/friends there to help no matter what. Even a stranger can make a difference. :)

*hugs* Just keep trying. I know you'll do great!

This sounds bad, hope you can pull through dear and that you can get around it all and leave it behind eventually.

I can relate to this. . .
*hug*
I wish could just make you feel better, tell you it will get better.
Bt I cant as this is something awdul. One day you will look back and are happy you got trough this stuff.
Focus on one task after another and you will get past this hard time.

I know this feeling all to well - maybe not on your level, but on a similar one. There is something I was told by a friend while sitting in a hookah pipe bar and drinking something so I could hammer on my feelings for a bit. Yes, it was not smart, but it got me the possibility to listen to what my friend had to say.

So, what he told me was, to sit down. And once done that, I should think of all the things that I really, really like - that I consider connected to my heart. That, in my case, was the code i'd written thus far.

Then he told me to hold dear to that. Its the only light i'd have back then, since the rest was a plain failure at the time. So what he basically told me to do was, to totally devote myself to it.

it sounds crazy, but the more I think just about something that I love, the less I'd think about osmething less positive. It might be cowardish; but it'd at least give you a bit of time to think clearly.

I can see where your fear comes from, and I would likely be also very scared to the top of my head and back down to the bottom of my feet. And I probably wouldn't be able to focus, either.

But what I have to admire on you is, that you actually were able to express yourself through soemthign you like. You drew this picture, and without reading the title, I knew what the feeling was. That means, that although you are in such a state of fear and shock and bad expectations, you expressed yourself in a way that i find very unique. I can't do that with code - sadly :).

There is nothing that neither of us can do, but believe in you. We can help you buy commissioning you (which, by the way, I was hoping to do this or next week) and saying nice things to you.

By all means, please do not loose optimism. I know it is hard to believe so and try so, but you have to see it this way: where something bad is coming, something good is hidden. I learned that myself.

Please stay strong, and if there IS something I can do - commissioning you to help you pay your bill - then I would very appreciate to help you. You're one of these artists that I really like, seeing you in a shape like that makes me sad also. So, please, stay strong.

<3

-hugs- Thanks for all the advice. Im glad I do have friends that I can talk to and give me help

*Hugs right back :3*
Glad to hear - friends are very important imho.
Wish you all the best with what is to come. :3