All I managed to do last night, felt like shit but I guess I didn't totally waste the night. I just couldn't do it, couldn't make something that was good... i'll sound like a wuss but it made me teary, it upset me I couldn't do my hobby. Feel like tearing a bit now but I can't... gotta go out.

Maybe i'm going off art a bit :/ maybe it's just a mood swing I don't know. Whatever it is it won't last, I'll make sure of it.

If artblock was a person i'd have drowned it by now, this isn't fun. But you guys, all of you who helped, the stream, on skype, IRC... you give me hope, best friends a guy could want.