To all my friends who have lost love ones I can not express how much it breaks my heart, please let me know if or how I can help. I'll do everything short of selling my "essence" for my friends, no matter how close or distant... or how new or old our friendship is, I'll always be a text or message away, because I love you!

So the doggy in this photo is my border collie/husky/Akita mix, and she's the sweetest little angel until another dog saunters into our yard or if a strange person gives me attention. She is a rescue dog from a not too bad life, but now after being borderline abandoned into my lap she borderline worships me. We just went through yet another scare at the vet. Last time we thought cancer and I cried like a bitch for (literally) an hour in my minivan when the vet called and said she was cancer free. This last time she looked like a zombie she was chewing so much. It was to the point she was lame and cried when I lifted her into my van for the vet visit. I then sobbed the whole way there. The vet mentioned lyme disease and I again started crying in the exam room. This dog has been through so much I just want her to have fun happy while she sniffs her way through this work... Blood work came back clean for lyme, just a flea allergy. I've never said this before, but I passed on a vacation home in Millinocket so I could spend the money on her. I almost signed my signature on the mortgage, but passed in case she had cancer. She's happy, healthy, and cancer free... Way more satisfying than a vacation home! "Who decide who?" Yes I finance her vet bills... but she drove me to get a good job, lose weight, and not drink as much pisswater. I hope I get my Lamborghini kit car while she is still with us! I give her love, healthcare, food, and a safe home... the same I would give for any dog or kitty. The simple things like sharing an ice cream or walking around at the town lake beach letting her sniff around at the other dogs really makes every day we spend time together. I want a hose, a Lotus Esprit V8, and a Lamborghini kit car... all she wants is to be next to me. I just heard Fuel "Falls on Me." and thought of my four legged princess... then cried again lol... if you can please rescue a dog. I haven't felt anything in my heart before... I rescued a doggy and somehow my cunty heart started beating again.