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The words in this picture are just a few, most common, of the ones that run through my mind. I've had many people tell me to "Just Smile. You're faking it. It's all in your head." while my brain is saying "Why are you still alive? You're a waste of space. You're useless."
Most people don't get it. I cannot simply "get over it" when my whole being just wants to stop existing. For 9 years I've been struggling with these thoughts, these feelings; I'm only surprised that it took this long for panic/anxiety attacks to start occurring. I'm finally able to be on medication, and it helps so much. It helped to the point that I'd forgotten what I was like when I wasn't on it.
If you are feeling like this and need to talk, please...talk with someone...talk with me or just ANYONE...don't do what so many others have...what I have attempted to do many times before.
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Most people don't get it. I cannot simply "get over it" when my whole being just wants to stop existing. For 9 years I've been struggling with these thoughts, these feelings; I'm only surprised that it took this long for panic/anxiety attacks to start occurring. I'm finally able to be on medication, and it helps so much. It helped to the point that I'd forgotten what I was like when I wasn't on it.
If you are feeling like this and need to talk, please...talk with someone...talk with me or just ANYONE...don't do what so many others have...what I have attempted to do many times before.
===Credit===
Art: The ever so wonderful
JuxZebra A huge thank you for doing this <3Character:
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"It's all in your head."
That's the worst part; the grubs burrowing in the black matter of my brain, out of reach. It's something I can't see, I can't touch- something I can't kill or beat down. It's in there. MOcking me.
You can't just shut out... you just try to fight it back with your own words. Sometimes, you just have to imagine just how cruel you could be to that voice. Just how evil... and hope to god you never hear it again.
That's the worst part; the grubs burrowing in the black matter of my brain, out of reach. It's something I can't see, I can't touch- something I can't kill or beat down. It's in there. MOcking me.
You can't just shut out... you just try to fight it back with your own words. Sometimes, you just have to imagine just how cruel you could be to that voice. Just how evil... and hope to god you never hear it again.
Remember that this world have been changing so bad... But in every case remember that you got a great ability and don't have to waist it, you got your finish but remember that even the worse enemy can be yourself. Just keep going forward...doesn't matter how it hurts, at the end of the battle you will win, but you are still living and learning. Remember that you value more.
Well yes, it is just in my head. That doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
Sadly, I gave up talking to people a long time ago, probably because of the above responses, I can't remember tbh.
Thankfully I don't get it that bad, but sometimes it does shut me down and I just have to try and distract myself. There's no reasoning with it, the voice rages and doesn't care about logic, it's like it just wants an excuse to wreck me.
Sadly, I gave up talking to people a long time ago, probably because of the above responses, I can't remember tbh.
Thankfully I don't get it that bad, but sometimes it does shut me down and I just have to try and distract myself. There's no reasoning with it, the voice rages and doesn't care about logic, it's like it just wants an excuse to wreck me.
"I cannot simply "get over it" when my whole being just wants to stop existing."
Wow, I relate to this so much. I don't think there could be anything worse than the complete feeling of hopelessness as every essence of your being seems to be giving up around you.
If I could just get over it, I would've long ago. Nobody wants to live an existence like this.
Wow, I relate to this so much. I don't think there could be anything worse than the complete feeling of hopelessness as every essence of your being seems to be giving up around you.
If I could just get over it, I would've long ago. Nobody wants to live an existence like this.
I know how that feels... it's horrible... but I got my depression from the post-apocalyptic pandemic and I literally lost everything my own family my friends even my human appearance... and dude to the so-called "normal" nature in my species it feels like that one day without any warning I'm going to lose myself... and this thought always terrifies me... I don't want to be some sort of anomalous parasite
"It's all in your head."
Why do [you] think I'm getting therapy and pills?
I always hated hearing that short quote, and it took various ways of explaining facts of what's going on in my head for some family to realize it's not so "fake."
Thank you for sharing this piece.
Why do [you] think I'm getting therapy and pills?
I always hated hearing that short quote, and it took various ways of explaining facts of what's going on in my head for some family to realize it's not so "fake."
Thank you for sharing this piece.
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