my old friend M.R. doubt

when i feel alone, or a bit down,
that's when i know that he's around.

"you have no friends, they think you're weird"
that's what he whispers in your ear.

"forever, you will be alone,
i'm the only friend you'll ever know"

when you no longer know what you'r live is about,
you've been visited,
by M.R. doubt.

his smoke like lies, the panic he spreads,
seeps through your ear, inside your head.

these fears and terrors he conceives,
till he's the only one you can believe.

you know he won't fully go away,
you'l live with him through another day.

oh how you hate, yes, you want out,
not another day with
M.R. doubt.

i can't just think or concentrate,
oh M.R. doubt, how much i hate.

for i can't just have friends, be happy, sing a song,
for you will always come along.

your lies just chill me to the bone,
why won't you just leave me alone?

but i fear that, forever, we are bound,
oh you, my old friend......

M.R. doubt.

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so, for almost my whole life, i have been followed by this unshakable feeling i'll never fully fit in, always be an outcast even among other outcasts.

i just chose to let my creativity loose on it, and that was the birth of M.R. doubt.
M.R doubt is basically the embodiment of my anxiety and fear of being rejected.

i walk around with his whispers in my ear every day,
point is, they didn't go away over the years, you just kinda learn to live with it.

so,l maybe this upload is a bit depressing but it has always been a remedy for me to either draw or write my negative feelings off of me.

just keep in mind, M.R doubt can bind with any one, but never let him tell you that you don't belong, cuz you do.

every one deserves to live their life to the fullest.
so say NO to this vile phantom with his smoky lies.