Was listening to "Lift Me Up" by The Afters while I did the majority of this.
Link >> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6UAGhJHmOw

For those who have not seen it yet, my beloved Master, friend, brother-figure, and idol,  DamnEvilDog has passed away unexpectedly within the last 24 hours. I've not taken the news very easily. No one who was close to him -- which is a very large amount of people -- is. We are all have chipped in and mourn together for his passing.

I had never thought he would be taken from us so suddenly within this new year. I had 100% full intentions to go down to where he lives and visit him at least once. We hoped he'd get his kidney transplant soon; but it wasn't soon enough...his health depleted faster then we realized.

Through the tears I've cried in this day, I've come out of it scarred and bleeding. I miss him so terribly. I wish for him to be back. But...now that he is gone, I have been thinking more of hoping that he is out of his misery and out of all the pain he's suffered through for as long as I have lived.

I remember vividly going into his stream out of sheer curiosity as well as boredom. I hadn't expected myself to find such a loving friend, to the point I wanted to call him "big brother". Instead, I became his little Kitten, and he was my Master. Either way, I never lost the love I developed for him. He was compassionate, sincere, funny, and always put his friends and those who he called "his family" first. A humble man unlike many today.

Even though this song is mainly religious and talking about the Christian God, I don't see it as that. I hear these lyrics, and realize this is what Puppy would do. He would be there for me and others, to try helping us by lifting our spirits and bring smiles to our faces. I only wished I had been able to give him just as many smiles and happy moments as he did for me. And now that he has passed, he will forever be in my heart, as well as in the hearts of dozens that he affected.

I try to think positively. I believe now he is watching us mourn for him. But at the same time, he would be happy to know we are trying to remember in the best way possible; happy times and moments that made us smile. His journey ended here on Earth, but one day, we will be reunited.