I readed the story, I am sorry about that, I understand how you feel, I hope things can get better.

Thank you for bearing your soul to us kion.
god bless you and keep you safe.
may you forever find love.

"Cries a bit" I'm sorry for all the wrong you've gone through and if we met face to face I would hug you. I can only hope you will find someone to be there and love you as you would them.

Frankly, you're not alone in this form of situation. I have those similar experiences where I have no one to help me out and to be around me when I need them. But loneliness is nothing to kill yourself over nor rejection. You were meant to do great things for the world even though it refuses to acknowledge it yet. The same happens to go for me. Yet I realize that there is power in the art you make especially the ones that reflect your real life. Keep up the good work and embrace the better part of life more strongly than the worst.

Quite a read. Just don't give up, buddy. I've experienced the whole unrequited crush thing before, it's quite tiring and just takes everything out of you. I'm sure Cheetahpaws would love to be your friend at least, he seems like a very awesome and personable kind of guy. He'd likely understand your situation. In the end, at least, there's always someone for everyone I say

Thank you for sharing, Kion. We all learn from our past, but the future is never written.