I know your pain, all people have bad mood and a past.
Probably you want to destroy yourself, or to be alone in your pain.
It's your choice but let me say an advice : Don't be too brutal with your friend and yourself.
Sometimes it's good to talk and write your feel on a paper.
But even if is easier to take a drugs or prescription medicament like a drugs is not the good solution for your soul. Like me, you can have a big smile but your soul is crying in silence and your body can't move anymore.
Stop be a coward, and get up. You can do it, if I could do it, you can too !

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