long story short, a few years ago i got into a fight with my mom over the phone at my (then gf) friend's house...when i hung up, i just walked outside, nobody noticed at first, and i walked out into the yard and just sat on thier storm shelter in the falling snow, crying... at that point in time i knew so little about myself, but she knew more, and realized that as subconscious as it was, i was punishing myself... thus the spark of creative life that is this piece...

the only piece i've poured so much actual soul into that i actually signed with my own blood...