Wow...so deep. This is very good for someone who has never tried poetry before. There are a few spelling mistakes, but that did not affect the message you were trying to convey.

thanks spelling has never been my strong point

Since it was your first time trying to write a potry I must admit I'm impressed
This poem expresses in a deep and extremely sad way your suffering feelings

thanks yer i just wanted to get some stuff out and it kind of turned in to that i would like to write stuff with out actually having to go through it like that but after 7 years i had had enough of not saying anything so it is a new form of expression for me and i have no need to hide what i feel as i feel safe hear. i seem to wright well when i wright what im feeling straight from the hart so to speak and not holding back. im gona try a few more hopefully not as sad but it depends how i feel. love can be a bitter sweet sting and a double edged sword.