I've been really on-edge and depressed for the last week. Well, longer back than that, but especially so this past week.

I have been going to doctors recently for body pains I've been having. Wrist and leg. This has been going on for quite a few months, with the original leg pains being over two years ago. The wrist pain is within the last 6 months but has been exponentially more difficult to deal with than the leg pains.

But recently the doctors are out of things they can do. In both cases, they haven't really been able to narrow down what's actually wrong with me. For my leg, they gave me an orthodic, and it's helped a substantial amount, but there's still residual pains that have persisted. My wrist, however, has been re-diagnosed a half dozen times, has had X-Ray and MRI, and I've spent 4 months in physical therapy for it. During that time, the pain has only managed to move around, or spawn new pains.

The current diagnosis is simple overuse, but when you live your life through your hands with gaming and computers and books, how do you give it the rest it needs? I don't have options, so I've been really limited in what I can possibly do to pass the time these days. And when my doctor finally gave up on me and said I'm just doomed to live in pain, it really made it hard to think in four dimensions like I normally can.

I'm doing what I can, trying to get out and be social more, but it's hard for me. I'm an introvert and I typically only want to socialize with a few people on most days. But I can't turn to them right now because they simply don't have time.

There's other stuff outside of the pain that's been contributing to me feeling really down, really upset and lost... But I don't care to share it on here. Thankfully I do still have a few good friends, like VK, who will make time for me when I'm feeling overwhelmed.

So for their sake, I'm going to do my best to put a smile on, and mean it. I'm going out the next few days this week to be social. Granted, it's just board gaming, but it's still much better than sitting at home trying to keep myself from overworking my wrist. Hopefully one day I can properly put weight on it again, properly use a mouse again, and that I won't end up with even worse pain that keeps me from even typing. But that means I have to remain careful and kind to my body.

Our bodies aren't nearly as strong as we tend to think they are. A single minor injury can turn into something major in the blink of an eye. Remember to stay active, but not too active.