'All these passing days, since the first day we met... I've been always wanted to talk with you, no matter how late i stay up just to wait for your reply. Each day we had fun, the things we share, the similarities we had, almost. The times where we mostly hang out with each other, there are some we don't.

Mostly i stress out if i don't know what are you talking about, with some friends i saw you go, its fine with me... leaving me like a dust... im used to being alone, even i met new bunch of people, they'll fade eventually, im hopeless making friends, i don't usually come on them just to say hi, i have no idea what to say at the first place.

I understand if they have some reasons if they won't hang out with me. Maybe its just me misunderstanding reality with people who i befriended, who am i really dealing with?

Somehow, as we known each other for a long time, the more we barely been together... just please, why is this happening to me? Is people really picky these days? Or they're just scared that they're meeting fake people, a being with nothing but ignorance, insecurities, judgemental... damn it... whats next? Betrayal? Oh please no... don't you ever do that... that really hurts my soul... you know how many times i've been betrayed, forgotten, unloved, and worst of all... useless...

You were there to comfort me all times whenever i felt it... the hatred in my heart. I'm thankful for that, im glad you were there for me. But... i just want to give a big sigh, its like, something is just missing, i don't know what it really is. Forgive me of what i am, i just want to be a positive being. I want to be friendly to everyone, but it sometimes it never turned out on what i expect.

Though, im still thankful that i met even a few friendly people along the way, and wanted to have fun like i do. I just hope that one day, we could be together again like my new friends are.

Thank you so much, for loving and hating me.'

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Been... through a rough life.