Oh god needles

I'm getting better at it!!!!!
and I didn't get blood on the carpet, either. :U

@..@ tougher then me, I started out doing it then hurt myself with it at some point.. got spooked and made my BF help me and he hates needles and he still would help but now I have mom helping me with them..

Aw man. I don't have anyone to help me at this point in time so I don't have a choice, I gotta do it.

I had a panic attack during my 3rd injection and I was really freaked out about this most recent time (yesterday)

but I managed to collect myself and get it done ;; so I drew this haha <3

It's not too bad I mean, it doesn't hurt or anything to me I just have anxiety issues and my hands shake... which makes me anxious because then I'm afraid I'm going to miss... and then I get even more anxious because I'm anxious over being afraid I'm going to mess up and so on. x-x

Its totally like not a bad thing.. it hardly ever hurts and when it does hurt it's just a pinch no biggie.. but fuck I've become a chickenshit over nothing @..@

I told you in the past its one of those auto injectors right? And I had one that was like broken so like it didnt jab in correctly it just sucked I really need to ask for normal needles but then no one wants to help me with normal needles lol cus they are like fuck how do I do this.

It gets better the more you do it don't go backwards like me :( Its not a big deal.

I know that's how I am too. I KNOW it doesn't hurt and it's fine but I get so worked up and anxious that I freak out and then I do end up hurting myself or wasting my needles lol

and yeah I remember you telling me that ugh that sucks.
I think sometimes we all go backwards. my first two times were easy and then the third time was a disaster and I bled everywhere and panicked XD

and then this last time it's starting to get easy again so we'll see. o.o;;;;